I'm sick of being melancholic, angry, in tears and whinny and perturbed. What's worse is, I feel stupid. Like an utter moron. I need a guide book that tells me how to be happy. I need love (from any possible sources). Pronto.

Labels: woebegone

I'm seriously dying from the lack of shopping. I wonder how I survived the whole month. I am gonna do some hardcore shopping the next two weeks and I don't care! I can't believe I spend my weekends slacking at the Macdonald's near my house. Fudge. This is so unbecoming of me. God, I'm morphing into an alien. I need to go to SingFest!


While you're away, I hope you'll be gone for good.
I need time away from you. Forever.
You selfish jerk.

Labels: bitchings

Things didn't go as planned during the whole of today. My earlier part of the day was pretty screwed up. Sigh.

I was slightly happier when I got to meet up with Pat, Shi Han and Yan Rong after school, but the rest (Hwee, CC & Allie) couldn't make it. The initial plan was to watch Alone, but we switched to watching the Simpsons Movie instead; since Pat hates horror movies.
♥ you girls!


My favourite Springfield Family!

The movie wasn't as hilarious as I expected it to be, but I enjoyed it anyhow.



Screw grainy pictures. I need a Canon!

Labels: love, woebegone

I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

$15.50 (Monday) + $14.90 (Thursday) = $30.40

I spent $30.40 just on cab fares this week!

Monday, cuz I overslept. Today, I overslept cuz I took reaaaaaaaaaaaaallly drowsy medicine the night before. I'm not gonna do that again. Fuck. I'm not gonna waste money taking cab to school ever again.


Class was superbly fun today, here's an extract:



I don't want a new class! ):










In case you were wondering why I kept signing in and out of MSN at approximately 4 - 4.30 PM this afternoon. Isn't Kok Bang Beng a hottie? Hahahahahahahahaha!




Class photo wor! ♥

Labels: bitchings, love, regularities

I think up till now, this friendship is all about you. Don't you think you're a tad selfish? I'm sick of all the giving, really. It should be my turn to receive. It sucks to be whinny and upset but I can't help it. I want to tell you. I tried. But it turned out to be a futile attempt because you hardly ask about my feelings, anything about me. Hell, you don't even read my blog. Am I just a dumping ground for you to pour out your woes, your secrets, your gossips, your unhappiness..? Then I take in more, some more, even more until I can take it no longer. I explode. I've got enough problems of my own. Everytime I try to talk, you shut me up -unintentionally or not- and yak yak yak. I'm angry, undoubtedly, but mostly disappointed. And now you're handing over your mess to me. I don't understand everything you're doing. I don't.

I'm mentally and physically drained. My eyes wanted to shut so much -when I plonked onto the MRT seat today- even when I struggled to keep them open. I hate waking up with aching neck and bones. I want to be the Victoria who doesn't care about self-image. I need to be crazy happy wacky. I've been in this state for way too long. I'm about to snap.

I don't see the point in taking tests cause no matter how low the scores are, the results get moderated and I managed to scrape a C even though I got 7/38. Superb aye? I think it's trash. I'm not learning anything, even when I thought I was.

And I've had enough of criticisms. I'm sick of people ribbing me 24/7. I'm sick of people treating me like garbage. I'm human too. Fuck. Fuck you.

My skin is itching. My head is throbbing. My bones and neck are aching. My calves hurt. My body hurts so much that I'm tempted to holler at you. I'm trying to pry my eyes open. I feel like utter crap. I never fail to do so.

Why? So many questions left unanswered.

Labels: bitchings

I think I've lost contact with the people I love.

I'm done with the pursuit of perfection.
I shall just leave it as it is.


Quaint little house by the sea. A patio covered with parquet. Kids calling the beach their "sand box". Beautiful sunset everyday. Puppies running about the house. This is what I call bliss. I'm just waiting for someone who shares the same vision as I do.


In another month's time, we'll no longer be classmates. I'm not quite ready to meet new people yet. Sigh. I don't like the idea of having new "friends" once every 4 months. I need permanent friends. Friends that will stick with me. I think I'm new-friend-a-phobic and that sucks.

I hate it when people who've grown close to me over a period of time just *poof* disappear. Such is life.

I'm rather chirpy today but I don't know why all these came into me mind.
(:

Labels: bitchings

Happy sexy 20th Uzubabashileelee! ♥
Hahahahahahahahahha!

You're finally 20. Old, but still none the wiser ;p
I'm kidding!

And here's a really "flattering" photo of you, dear uzubabashileelee. *snigger* Since you've kindly put up so many of mine on your blog (:

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥


To Lai Yan, Sam & Kel:
Our duel shall commence again tomorrow.
Bwahahahaahahhaa!

Labels: birthday to, lee shi, spastic, W35M

... is finally out after much hype. I can't wait to get my hands on it too. But that'd have to wait till I have the $$ ): I know the ending of Book 7 already cuz the news reported it. Spoiler!

Friday
The last few moments of my glorious, glorious mop of hair.





Yesterday's BBQ (held to celebrate Hafiz, Hasif and Sathiya's 18) was alright. Got to see some people who I haven't seen for quite some time. I can't say I enjoyed myself but I did have some fun time with them monkeys.

The only sec 4s present were:

Labels: bitchings, f***, hates, hype, regularities

Labels: hairstyle, new, suckxzxzx.

Yesterday's communication class was the best ever. All we did was to slack, have fun and to fool around video-ing.

It was pouring this morning.
I just grabbed a teeshirt and slipped into my pumps, then realised that was a mistake.
The dollar coin meant for my bus ride rolled into the drain.
I missed a bus while waiting for my maid to bring me her ez-link card.
I looked like a wreck.
Cyn cried, so did R. Chin (our facilitator).

Nothing bad happened on my Friday the 13th though.

Labels: bitchings, love, regularities, W35M

Go read the news report on this. It's hilarious; the way the pagans react.


I love the Simpsons! Can't wait for the movie to be out!
And this is the way I'll look if I live in Springfield.
Go simpsonize yourself!



:D

Labels: cool shizz, widgets

It's almost time for 3rd meeting. Went to Causeway Point with almost half my class for breakfast at Mac's. They're a fun bunch.

I wore my ditsy dot tieback to school today, paired it with a pair of leggings and my havaianas and my "granny's" bag. Loved the outfit, but everything would be perfecto if I was slim. Le sigh.


I don't like my ____. I don't like my _____. I don't like ____.
You only know how to ruin my mood.

I wish _______ would care a little more. I need your embrace.
Sometimes I wonder if my presence is of any importance to you, or did you just merely needed someone there. Anyone.


(edited at 11:59 PM)












All the insane stuff we did today. Credits to photographer Lee Shi, who never fails to capture me being "unglam".

Labels: bitchings, love, regularities

Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.

Labels: I fuckin' hate you.

Labels: ♥

Listen to the last song on my playlist.
It hits home; on what I'm feeling, that is.

Anberlin is an awesome band.

Sometimes I wonder why I bother about others' feelings when they don't give two flying fucks about mine. I am not indulging in self-pity.

Everything I do and say, I get criticised for it.
I've gotta learn to be self-reliant. No more agreeing to everything. No more intimidations. All I ask for is a bit of strength, wisdom and liberation. I don't go out alone, I can never go to school alone, I can never shop alone, I can never dine alone. To me, being lonely and alone are the same thing. People however, say they are two separate matters.

Cecilia, I'm beginning to agree with you. Certain incidents happen to make you see.
I guess they're more of proximity acquaintances then friends. Not friends that will stick with you no matter what.

I miss you girls terribly - Hui Yu, Cecilia, Shi Han, Patricia, Yan Rong and Allie.
I miss 4-1.
I miss Mrs. J Ng.
I miss Mr. Dimus Choong.
I miss "Uncle Kelly".

Growing up is not at all a fun process.
Oh, how I hate being nolstagic and weepy and gloomy!


On another note, JJ has had his fur groomed today. He's looking mighty handsome.

Out of the 5 days of school, I only attended 3.

As usual, Rebecca Chin was a total fuckhead.
"Then minues left!" Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! * infinity

Labels: I miss 4-1 ):, MAOs, RP sucks afterall., school still sucks, school sucks, what-nots

I haven't been blogging religiously, I know. I needed a hiatus.

First breakout just ended, and we're doing the FMT only now. I'm a major slacker these days ):
Kok Beng is an idiot, Gibson is a walrus. They're both smoke addicts and are mentally disabled. It's my misfortune to be grouped with them. Le sigh! Fortunately for me, I have Hui Ling and Wei Ping.

Lol.

You suck.

Labels: (:

Transformers is teh best flick I've ever watched. Love the storyline, love the lead acts. Everything!

:D

Happy birthday to Cyndy!

Pardon me if I suddenly break down and cry, have emotional fluctuations or do anything weird/stupid/insane. All I need are people who are understanding now, cuz it's a really trying period for me.

Labels: what-nots

My laptop went zonkers.

All the pictures, music, rp folders GONE. Just like that.
The music, I can retrieve it from my MP3 but the pictures ): Sigh.

My life is effed up more than ever before.
@#$%^&*!

Labels: fuckin' shit

I cry.

Sorry for the friggin' emotional outburst today. I don't know what came over me. I hope I didn't frighten you guys. Thanks aplenty to people who bother cheering me up; I appreciate that. Tears welled up in my eyes during prayer meeting, but I managed to hold them back. I really hate crying in front of people.

So many obstacles, and I'm not even 17.
Why is being human so hard?
Sometimes I really wish I didn't have emotions.

To me, crying is a form of release but also a sign of weakness.


P.S/ I think people should know that when a person is upset, he/she needs care and concern from people around her, not time-out(s) or time to "cool down". At the very least, that's for me.

Labels: ):

Yesterday was insane. I rushed to Jurong Point right after school. Only to get scolded by Mom, wait an hour for Sandy, have the movie cancelled, and all we did was to window shop and have dinner at KFC.

@#$%^&*!!

The only good thing was, I bumped into many lovely people! Hafiz, Yao Rong, Hui Wen... can't remember some.


Lai Yan, Cyn, Lee Shi, Wei Zhong & I went off after the first breakout today. Twas' really impromptu, but we went ahead with it anyway. The funny thing is, we stayed in the school's cafe. All the way till 4PM.







Afterwhich I met Sandy at Dover. We bumped into Hanny Wunny Bunny! I hugged her and she did the this-girl-is-crazy handsign to her friends. Walao! ): I miss my MAOs!

Then we headed to Sandy's class studio, and attended SP's CF Bible Study. I felt pretty much at home cuz I know most members during the April camp. GQ & Jabez left with the rest while Zhong Ying, Sandy & I headed to Jurong Point to get Sandy's dress and dinner.

Sandy just left my house not long ago. My brother totally cracked us up with his absurdities and we couldn't stop laughing.
Pronunciation problems, retarded photos and people-watching. Gee!

Gramps & Nana are back from China! :D
They seemed to have enjoyed their trip very much.


On a serious note, I've noticed a change in myself. Something that I wish would go away. I don't like all the angst within me. It's not doing me any good. None at all.

P.S/ I'm selling my Little Miss Contrary tee by Junk Food. It's authentic (mind you, I bought it from Queen's Couture) and is tagged a size M. I've worn it for less than 10 times and it is in mint condition. Price is negotiable. Contact me for more details!

SOLD!

Email address: fifi.pipi.andsushi@hotmail.com

Labels: fun :D, i hate you, junk food tees, little miss contrary, online spree, retail therapy, school still sucks, school sucks, shit in panties, to go

Done with my part of the worksheet, and I'm supposed to be researching on - wait, what's that? ah yes... the criteria for selecting air rifle players.

Labels: fun :D, kickass, love, school still sucks, wham

I already do.


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Click here for the JCC 40th anniversary dinner album! :D

Labels: :D, JCC 40th Anniversary, Photos