I love Mr Brown's blog. The post about his daughter's autism encouraged me somehow. If she, a little girl of age 5, could do something that is so hard for her, why can't I? Besides, those things are what I should be doing, it's not hard at all la!
So, Vic, you've gotta have faith in yourself! *sings- Gotta have faith in me~

Screwing up in human relations recently, and I've got no idea why. It's prolly because of my hot temper. So I'd like to apologise to anyone whom I might have offended unknowingly.

Eh, and I know my blog's getting REAL boring now, cus it's just school, school and more school everyday. And the heat's getting to me. I need rain please. (Err, Alison's prolly real excited now.) And it's always during the 1.45pm to 3.15pm timeslot that I'd be roaring with laughter. Liana offered to ... ... and I couldn't help but to give the virtual 三条线. Lol!




Andy, you have to think carefully ok? We'll always stand by you. And you have to stand strong for your religion, your beliefs. Take care. I've got no idea if you'll be reading this, but we really care for you. I really care for you okay? It's disheartening to hear all these negative things, but, aye... I'm used to it alr. I still care for you E212 members okay?


I'm not a perfect person.

am back! (:
dad booked a maxi cab cus his 7 seater wasn't big enough for all of us, and he was leaving earlier during the dinner to entertain some clients. the driver picked us up first, then we went to YWCA to fetch 表叔, then to Mirama Hotel! haven't been there for a looooong time, but i can recognise the lady boss and the chef. the food still taste great! scrumptuous la. very satiating!

dad went off after an hour later or so.

suprisingly, i was rather chatty just now. my 表叔 is very friendly. aye, no pictures thou. he's darn brainy alright? he's a lecturer in one of China's universities, and he came to SG because NUS invited him over for a talk. his daughter is studying in NUS, totally FOC! SG govt. gave her a scholarship to come to SG and study leh. walaoooo. smart lah!

oh, something's really wrong with my stomach, i keep returning to the loo. maybe my body's too anxious for me to lose some flab, but *looks up and down into the mirror... i see no difference leh.

the study camp..? it was a total bore!
i couldn't stop laughing after the lunch break thou, thanks to PPPL, naq and the BJ girl. keep cracking dirrrty jokes. eh, not exactly, but naq and BJ girl told me to tell azizan that he has big and pink punat(s).

so azizan, i don't know whether you'll be reading this (and i don't really care), but i wanna let the whole world know that

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YOU HAVE BIG AND PINK PUNAT(S)! (:

oh! i'd love to go down to clarke quay sometime, the night view is splendid.

i decided not to mention you, lest i get upset again.
*chants- Forget you. Forget you. Forget you. Forget you. Forget you. Forget you.
yay-ness! you're just a friend. no more, no less.

好了,我累了. 晚安!

leaving the house for a family gathering. my 表叔 from China is here. we're dining at the Japanese restaurant @ Mirama Hotel. I love the food there. (:

toodles~

heh.
today's papers weren't exactly easy, but i guess they were alright la. had CO after the paper, i have to say that i'm rather annoyed at the way they do things. alright, enough of complaints.

oh, and my daddy's coming back from HK tday! mumsy going to the airport to fetch him. it's a surprise la. my parents are hell loving! :DD forgot to mention that my dad went overseas last friday.
it's not fair, Yuan Ching Sec students cankeep their Chi O' Level question paper la! and thanks a lot to Jabez,for dampening my hopes of an A2/B3! ):

to THAT person:
- i'm definitely not best friend material.
- it definitely wasn't a "weird emotional outburst" that day.
- i'm rather tired of the way you treat me. i can't always be there for you, cus i need you to be around for me too.
- you're bloody selfish.
- don't call me dear, it SICKENS me cus i never was, i never am, and (i know very well that) i am NEVER going to be your dear.
- she don't pebble, i don't stone, you don't rock. (:

okay, i feel much better. i want that person to read this entry, but if i recalled correctly, i remember hearing him say that he forgot my blog url. there's no point, but i'd like to bet on the possibility that he'd chance upon my blog.

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well well, quite a number of things happening during the June hols.
30 May- 2nd June: STUDY CAMP.
7th June- 8th June: CO OCEAN CAMP.
15th June- 18th June: COMBINED LUTHERAN CHURCHES RETREAT @ MALACCA, M'SIA! we'll be staying at riviera bay resort, my family used to go there quite often. heh. i can't wait for it! i'll then be able to see my kor, michael and the rest of 'em! yay-ness!
19th June- 23rd June: STUDY CAMP.

the GSS is on! i've got such a great urge to splurge! hey, that rhymes. LOL! dad's back, and it means one thing! heh heh. more of the ka-chings! i'm one unfillial daughter. boo hoo! okay, i shouldn't be spending dad's hard earned money, and i'm seriously trying to resist that temptation ok? :D i tell you, i love my dad not only cus he gives me the moolah ok? he's the most understanding guy ever! love you, dad! love you, mum! lol

you've got a superb command of english btw (:

娃得发 娃得发 娃得发 娃得发 娃得发 娃得发 娃得发 娃得发 娃得发 娃得发 娃得发?!?!
我快疯了. 呵呵!

Boy, you better put that pen to paper and charm your way out.

i'm fine. everything's good.

satisfy my desire (die bitch, die!)

i burst into tears the moment i reached. i didn't expect my emotions to be so overwhelming. but i felt better after angela and the rest started talking about random things. and i was thinking perhaps the only time my class would have a gathering, is prolly at a teacher's funeral. (the sentence structure is weird la, i know.) touch wood! we left around 4.30pm? then went to 7 eleven and there were these 2 cute (when i say cute, i MEAN cute) angmoh guys. gagagagagagagagagaggagagaaggagagagagaga
i went out of 7-11 after them, then one of them held the door for me. how considerate. 暗笑

took 157. on the bus, this couple sitting beside me and allie, were behaving so desperately! esp the girl, she couldn't keep her hands off her bwoy. and smooched like alot of times. wt_h can? buaaaayyyy tahhhhaaan.

changed to 98 at alison's stop, went home, changed. wait for mumsy to come home and went to school. the weather sucked. we walked in the bloody rain using a lousy umbrella then reached school. ms tang talked to my mum. oh! and we saw mrs bernadine lim on our way to mr wong's furneral wake at somewhere near westmall. then we called her, and she didn't know about mr wong's demise ):

we won't ever forget you, mr wong. @#$*%^!!! ):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):

i need to focus, study, restrict myself. and hate that pain-in-the-ass of a brother.
(: that's it, Victoria. that's it. You have got to do it no matter what! where's your bloody will power. use it, damnit. Yeah, that's the way. But no matter what you do, don't pretend, don't be a liar.

I love you guys!

er. i've got nuts to post about, but i'm bored what. school was helluva boring and sticky and stuffy and hot! whatever. just realised that i don't have much time during the june hols, have study camp during the first week, CO camp on the second, lutheran combined retreat on the third week, and study camp during the last week. walao eh.

so...
the MAOs excluding our da MAO went to harbourfront centre for lunch, then went to PS t take neoprints. haha! we were crazy half the time. eh, we're always crazy la. lalaallalalala.

SHIHAN! I'VE GOT YOUR PHOTOS WITH ME. EHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEE!
blackmail you. heh

getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou getoveryou

quotes from cclia: I can, I will, I must!
cus there's no point anw. 加油!

omg omg omg! American Idol finals! i like both Taylor Hicks and Katherine McPhee leh.
well, i've got to study la. mum's hell pissed at me.

toodles!
(:

yay! they finally arrived (:

right. my results are bad. but my SS and hist improved la. its just 6 days away!



and our beloved Mr Wong Kiow passed away on 21 May 2006. he only retired less than 2 years, and the last time i saw him (during the alumni dinner this year) he looked very healthy, and in shape. sigh
am going to his funeral wake later this week to pay my last respects. i can't bear to see him. seriously. at least, he left without pain.

Mr Wong, thank you for trusting me during those sec 1 days. thank you for adding those marks to help me pass my math. although half the time i didn't really understand the things you were teaching, but nevertheless, thank you.
you've devoted 3/4 of your life to teaching in JSS. everyone at JSS loves you, even though your eyebrows intimidate us, even though you always order the guys to "squat down there" or "surrender", and even though you reprimand us when we don't receive our test papers with both hands from you/anybody else.
your smiles erase our fear of you.

my deepest condolences to his family.
):

life is indeed, fragile.

i can't believe you did that
am i supposed to console you? i'm appalled. really. 兴灾乐祸? no. i wonder if that'll happen again ):

went lido @ orchard to watch the Voice eventually. yanrong and i went to buy the tix first while the rest waited for cclia. the auntie at the sales box told us,"if you're underaged, you can't enter the cinema, they will check your i/c. and there will be NO refund." she didn't ask how old yanrong was, but she asked me. then yanrong kept saying we're older than 16. we bought it then met them and crapped. was time to enter the cinema then cclia, pat, hwee and shihan went in first. yan and i were devising ways to bluff our way in. in the end, we mixed in with a group of people who looked 20 plus, and we entered without checking i/c! :D haha!

i think the show was crap.
yan's heel broke, we took a loooooong time to settle it. asked her to buy a pair of slippers at pacific plaza but t'was too ex. we saw zhang yao dong at the cafe there. he looks the same in real life, but better looking.

so we got out of PP then went to the bus stop outside, then cclia and pat went to DFS to get scotch tape to 'repair' yan's heels. but she bought a new pair of pumps at far east afterward.
cclia had t leave so we walked around lor then went t wheelock place to look at crumplers. went to wisma after that, then went home. on the train...


the guy and the girl in pink are together (or that's what we think), the one on the left in jc uniform was sleeping all the way. unaware that she's lying on that guy, and that his gf is just beside him. ok, the gf didn't seem to bother. pat, hwee and i were laughing all the way, the guy's face was like "HELP ME?!" but he seemed annoyed at us. haha! the three of them alighted at j.east together. HAHAHAHAH! that's the funniest thing ever. oh, and the gf looks like xu chun mei. i'm behaving like some moron. lol

after all that, there's this guy who was digging his nose and discreetly putting the fingers into his mouth. GROSS! he kept doing that. omg omg omg. then pat wanted to go tell him to stop. and he got off at lakeside with pat and i. WTH WTH WTH WTH! he continued doing that. pat shouted," PLEASE DON'T DIG YOUR NOSE IN PUBLIC!" i was stunned, but the guy didn't seem to hear it. but he stole glances at us. @&^$#^%$* !!

didn't take neoprints. we were all broke.

not in a mood to walk JJ.
not in a mood to bathe JJ.
not in a mood for anything.

all these mixed feelings are trying to run, run away. but they're stuck. unless the heart bursts opens and everything'll flow, flow out.
):

Take my hand now
We'll run forever

this ain't anything new la. i'm not going t bother about my coursework! let all people get what they deserve. so i reckon i deserve a big fat 0! (: and i haven't walked JJ yet. oh, and i'm in the sch computer lab. think we're going t watch the voice @ YISHUN?! that's hell far.

er. i'm bored. alison's like resting her head on the table and i think she's in lala land alr. that's quick, i was still talking t her a minute ago.

ungraceful lim.bigwalk.this sunday.
whoopeedee! i can't wait.

this is definetely not a gd place to do my coursework, especially when the teacher isn't here t nag at us and alison's sleeping like a log. i need a blogskin. badly.

later~

am i glad the MYEs are over (:
but i've gotta prepare for the O level MT paper on May 29. weird thing is, i'm not feeling the stress and competition yet. the MAOs are even going for the Big Walk this Sun. eh, there's a lot of tension and irony going on recently. and i mean, A LOT. blah! i'm just trying to act every lil' bit of a literature student. haha! oh heck!

my eczema is back ): i feel anything but love for it. grr! i don't think it's funny to laugh at people who are born with problems like that, it's not as if we WANT it. what i mean is, how insensitive can you people get? gee

i'm glad my parents taught me the right way to use grammar. i chanced upon someone's blog and saw this:"when ii m wif euu all ii feel very pressure...." those words stung my eyes! can you imagine a guy typing this way? OMG! that's disgustingly sissy and not to mention, ah lian. but he is alright la, considering the fact that he knows how to spell "very" and "pressure".

她又来了.华文 'O' 水准都还没到,她就要我开始准备 ): 很讨厌啦!

i'm sorry for the fact that i'm fat, that i have eczema, that my name can be seen almost everywhere. i'm utterly sorry. you can request a ban of the name "Victoria" or another alternative is to donate your retina, so you'd do good to blind people and you wouldn't be able to see anyone, anything or me FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE! splendid idea, you say! this way you'd kill two birds with a stone. so thank me for helping you go blind successfully and i feel awfully, awfully proud. so much that my tears can no longer contain themselves. okay, this is SO random la! fwahahahaahahahahahahahahahaah!

oh! oh! oh!
and i want to catch lots of flicks!

AQUAMARINE.
POSEIDON.
MISSION IMPOSSIBLE III.
THE DA VINCI CODE.
WHEN THE STRANGER CALLS.
VOICE?

i think there are more, but i forgot. heh.
and, thanks to yanrong, bubu is going to pay for the da vinci code tickets! Victoria L. thanks BUBU the piece of shit in advance and of course, my beloved yanrong. heh. i'm almost ecstatic! *hums a ridiculous tune

oh, speaking of yanrong. something darn funny happened in the canteen tday! hahahahhaahhahaahhaha!
my dear baabat, take care of that nose of yours (:

buhbye! you're much loved by me.
P/S: i understand that much of this post has no link whatsoever. haha!

euu r sho cutiex nehx! ii lurbbe euu!

my MYEs end tday. but @#$&%^*!!!! there's still the dreadful



O LEVEL MT PAPER!

ARGH.

i'm sick of this. honestly, i hope you'd disappear fr my life. (: and no, you should know very well that i didn't imitate you. i'm sorry to even let you think that i was imitating you. oh the horror!

Victoria L, stop being so sensitive and oh-so-insecure. i was walking home ytd and thinking what's really wrong. i think it's really just me.

haven't been in a gd mood recently, i'll tend t think stupid things. well, truth is, i haven't been in a gd mood for a looong time. thanks to ______w. GEE! ): SAVE ME FR THIS STUPIDITY. i don't know whether to abhor you or to love you, it seems so utterly... confusing. and that korean drama, 悲伤恋歌 made me so much worse. i cried and mumsy laughed at me. "It's only a show!" she said. alright, i know! i'm just feeling emotional. :D

JJ keeps paw-ing the door open, since that fateful day that i slammed the door and now, the door can't be even closed properly.

i want to change this blogskin so badly. it doesn't suit me. at all.

oh, and i went to crystal jade @ JP (3rd floor) for dinner just now with mumsy and my beloved grans. that pig claimed that he was quite full fr the lunch; tea-break rather, to go eat with us. so we brought food back home for him and i got the sleeve of my fleece soaked in vinegar. it rhymes! LOL. and the smell of that horrible vinegar is still on my fingers. gross!

dad's overseas again, he's coming back on tuesday, went to vietnam.

i'm going to get my

- top fr bloodbros.
- bag fr 2cm (gna get it later this week!)
- waiting for my madrid birkenstock to arrive!
- that other top fr realm.

mumsy didn't really liked the earrings i bought her for mother's day. that pig shared the gift with me. i'm more sincere. haha! i gave her a card too. it's ugly but it's the thought that counts right? heh. i reckoned it suits her. but she didn't like it, said she was gna dissect it and make it into a necklace. *gasps!

totally enjoyed ytd! the service was great 'cept that t'was a little too long and yuling! i haven't seen you for a long time. where are you?! ):
doubt i can make it for next week's service @ expo since it's on sunday, i might be able to turn up for cgm thou. i just can't wait for the comb. lutheran church retreat! ahahaha! gonna be tons of fun.

yuck! the smell of vinegar with raw ginger.

last paper tmr! (:

it's sad how things always never seem to go our way. it sickens me utterly. the memories, so many. my posts are so very contradicting. a post before i said everything's going great and now...?

太多太多的回忆
i just have to think back, the stuff keeps coming. funny how our lives inter-twine and suddenly, we're strangers. haha! friends who were so close once, just leave you like that. i wonder when this is going to happen again. valerielowhuiminandgohkaijian! okayy, fine. am i over-reacting? NO?! cus we spent four freaking years together, and we were "BFFs", it's the 8th year we've known each other for goodness' sake.
yesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyes yesyesyesyesyesyes yesyesyesyesyesyes
yesyesyesyesyes. i'm an emo person, yada- yada. haha. boo-hoo! gah!

oh, what a nice mother's day dinner we had tonight. hah! thanks to our mr-know-it-all again. he nearly ruined everything. like he always does it, ruin my mood. i bought my top just now. wasn't really satisfied thou. hah! i need more retail therapy like real badly. and i'm returning t CHC tis sat. ray was like," huh? am i dreaming? whack me."
ERR. YEAH, I'M PRETTAYE MUCH SURE I'M GOING BACK THIS WEEK, DAH-LINGS. HAH. oh, ignore all the rants above, just very much needed to shout (in a sense).

uh,bye. ):

you're just a lil liar, nothing much, nothing less.

I'm so happy! (: everything's like going great for me. haha! Ana's coming back to be our maid, this is so unexpected. shall explain at another time. I love her, she's the best maid our family ever had, such a blessing! She still remembers our birthdays and send cards to us. :DDDDD

MYEs are going to be over real soon. Tmr's the last lap, jiayou vic! and they're the killer papers. (as quoted by mr ashraf)

YAY-NESS
AND
GAY-NESS!

my brother's an ass! i can't believe it! he was lying on his bed beside the comp, and i was typing away la. then someone called home and i picked it up. i said hello. the caller said that too, i said hello?! the caller said hello again. then i realised it was my BROTHER who called home. how idiotic was that huh? blah! hahahahah! i feel like an idiot when i talk to him. shit you, jeremy lien.

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well, the MYEs have taken its toll on me. I've dreamt about the most ridiculous and cruel things. haha! mumsy says it's stress, which i seriously doubt, since i don't think i've been mugging alot. i haven't seen my CHC peeps for a long time, and i miss you guys! :D i'll come back soon, i promise. and i saw on mel's/baohui's blog that sister mayce changed her hair parting. heh!

just prayed that i do well for my MYEs!

toodles.

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nothing but overwhelming sorrow.

CL paper was alright tday. prettaye easy? LOL.
I actually messaged mumsy t tell her about the CL paper and ended with "i miss you!" Wow! I'm suprised at myself la. Heh. Am going off t JE library with my buds t mug mug mug! :D

Ciao!

mum's birthday was on April 30th, but we celebrated it on sat at Marche! :D oh-so-scrumptuous meal!

tasted pork knuckles for the first time in my life, it wasn't so bad. in fact, it tasted pretty good! heh.
and the ice cream on waffles!




eh, the ice cream's spread out, that's all. LOL


dearest mummy. i love you! *muah


it's a combo of tartar sauce, chilli sauce and salsa cheese. pretty gross


besties! :D in JP toilet, we were mugging ok?


szehui, naomi and i after sun service at 399.


i'm gna buy this top. heh!

alright, i'm going off alr. dad's back early and start t nag at me and blah!

: shan't be bothered with men. irritated.

"我知道" It seems so ridiculous, but I'm actually thinking of you.