Have you ever been selfish? To a point where the feelings of others' isn't worth a nickel? Everything you care about is yourself, yourself, yourself, yourself and yourself. The victim suffers from your indifference. No matter how callous you are, he/she takes it all in. You take his/her genuine care and concern/love/tolerance/big-heartedness for granted. Then one day, you blow it all. When your friend was going all out to salvage this one-sided friendship, you flick it aside. After losing this friend, you regret your actions/words that wounded him/her so deeply. Maybe you wouldn't even think so.

"Hello? I'm wrong? How can I ever be wrong?" *rolls eyes

Just like that, and you've probably lost the once-in-a-lifetime true friendship. Kudos to yourself.
In my case, I've been both the victim and the crook. Which I truly regretted for ever letting that egoistical person manipulate me, and of course, for doing a boo-boo myself.

Then the self-righteous people. Always telling others not to do this, this is very bad. Have you never had a slip-up in your life? Seriously, do some self-reflection. When you sneer at someone for doing a 'tut-tut', look at yourself. What you are doing to that someone, is exactly what they've been doing and you wind up making a fool out of your so-called righteousness.

Do you believe one can truly sit on the fence? Well, I don't.


Right now, I'm feeling indignant. No one ever took me seriously. Maybe I should stop laughing/fooling around. Perhaps then, people will stop belittling me. They make me feel small and unappreciated. My heart's bruised and battered by the hideousness of human nature. I just wish a cherub will make me see the light again.

Physical exhaustion leads to distress. I haven't been sleeping well. My body's a train wreck now. I need a vacation.



Someday I'll take you away from all of this.

Will you really?
x

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