LOVE

I've shifted to mmmwhazzup.livejournal.com

2007-11-09T01:15:00.000+08:00

I've shifted yet again, cuz popgum was screwed. I'm at http://mmmwhazzup.livejournal.com/ now! Please comment there, it's awfully quiet and I don't like it. And no, you don't have to have an lj account to comment. You can comment anonymously! But it'd be best if you leave your name somewhere in your comment.

xoxo

deezguzting.

2007-10-29T01:52:00.001+08:00

You're totally ripping off me. Can you get your own typing style or whatever-you-call-that cuz it's really annoying? Fuck copycats. Where's your sense of originality!!

popgum.livejournal.com

2007-10-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm officially/unofficially switching to livejournal. Simply put, I'll be blogging more often there but I will blog here from time to time.

Here's the url if you're blind: http://popgum.livejournal.com

Oh, and some entries (I'd say, most entries) are "friends only" so add then comment me and I'll add you back! Ciao.

Alt. + Ctrl. + Del.

2007-10-27T01:21:00.000+08:00

I'm getting bored with blogger (again), so I might be switching to my livejournal one.

Here're pics of Vanessa and I camwhoring in the toilet:

Work was good for once 'cuz there weren't much people. Lai and I spent the whole night laughing like insane buffoons. We bluffed the kitchen dudes that we could lick our elbows and told them to try and they tried for so long, it made us laugh sooooo hard. After work, I went to SuperCue to meet up my parents and brother for some pool.

On the bus to SuperCue, I was wondering about how different things would be. I miss you. I really do. I'm waiting 'cuz you always come back. I think of all the "what-ifs" and everything people have been telling me about. Then I remembered something you said, and suddenly it's all clear. Maybe it's time for me to let go. But I can't, until you tell me so.

It's time to throw in the towel

2007-10-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

This morning, when I was brushing my teeth, the toothpaste went into my windpipe. I swear I almost died. My throat felt like twas' on fire then I coughed nonstop and my throat still kinda hurt now.

It's over, it's over.

Adding up the things you'd never be.

2007-10-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

It's been eons since I last caught up with Marcus and it's surprising how we're able to talk for two hours straight without a single ounce of awkwardness and yay we're going out for movies soon!

I gotta kick the sluggish monster outta me and start keeping a planner 'cuz I keep forgetting the dates and things I'm supposed to do.

/Note-to-self: Siew Hui's birthday celebration at East Coast Park this Thurs

Speaking of which, I'm hoping to plan my birthday party soon and this year it'd be done with Lai Yan cuz our birthdays are just 3 days apart! I sure hope it'd be a special seventeenth birthday for me. Apparently, my past birthdays except for the first and tenth one were rather mundane.

I've got a terrible migraine now.

Fork /

2007-10-22T09:08:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so tired and grumpy (for no apparent reason) now. I fell asleep on dad's car earlier, it was so comfortable I didn't wanna get off. I wanna go home. Argh! Oh well, at least I have the homemade sandwiches Lai made to look forward to.

Chilling session with Lai, Joanne and Kel after school.

I'm not feeling too well. Guess it's the sambal stingray I had for dinner yesterday.

What if I say I'm not like the others?

2007-10-21T18:13:00.000+08:00

I held your hand, hoping to pass you whatever strength that's left inside of me. One last embrace before I knew you'd be gone. But I didn't expect you to be gone until now.

Yay tennis with Levin, Dad and Jem later!
Work was tolerable yesterday. Derrick was surprisingly nice *raises eyebrows*

After work, headed to Macs with Lai. Then I called WZ when we were about to leave, just to see if he was at Tiong. I was on the phone with him and walking out of Macs at the same time, then we saw him and burst out laughing. So yay I got someone to accompany me home and he was totally bitching on the train. So fun. We've been meeting lesser and lesser nowadays ): Must go out more often k!

Rehearsal for the X'mas musical after service just now and twas' fun! :D I miss you people. Why never ask me out! I'm not busy on Sundays okay! I don't work on Sunday! ): Love y'all.

x

Omg so funny. Hahah!

So be here, here now.

2007-10-20T02:22:00.000+08:00

Time check: 0222

School was really fun today and I got to work with Vanessa and Mun Teng for the first time. I had a hell of a good time laughing during meeting 3 today. The skits presented were omg so funny. Work, however, sucked big time. By the end of it, my back was aching like maaaaaaad and I was so tired I swear I could have fallen asleep walking. Well, that's the price to pay if you want extra cash for retail therapy right? Pfft.

On the way to macs after work, Lai and I talked about tellytubbies and pokemon. All that derived from looking at the half-moon tonight. She said it resembled a watermelon. Geez... How spastic can we get? Haha! Oh oh oh! I saw an orange lamborghini during work today and it's so chio canzxz. One perk is that tonnes of reaaaally posh cars pass by there daily.

Dad came to fetch me at Tiong Bahru after fetching Mom and Jem, then we went to the Macs drive-thru to get some supper. Omg fattening can? (Shut up Jem. Don't comment!)

Okay work tomorrow so I gotta sleep now.

Note to self:
#Sunday afternoon JP/ Tartan Peasant Tunic
#Wed evening Dhoby/ ASOS Ecru Cutwork
#Sat evening Cityhall/ Accessorize bangles

84.70 I think I'm crazy.

Gimme, gimme more.

2007-10-19T13:55:00.000+08:00

I really want theseeeeeee:

#1 (Vintage) Polaroid Cam

#2 this top in coral from royalsecret.lj

#3 Ipod Nano 3rd Gen. in Red only

#4 ASOS Ecru Cutwork Top

And I'm craving for
right now.

I thought you said that things were improving.

2007-10-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

I need to declutter my thoughts.
If only there was a "reverse" card.

Now I feel so much pain, as exposed as a raw wound. As though someone would come anytime and pour salt onto it or cut it deeper. I need to make sure I can handle a bad day myself, just in case anything crappy happens at least I know I can manage.

Sometimes I find myself breathing so hard as if there were no oxygen. I need to locate my faith. I feel so messed-up. Every now and then, I choose to be silent because I'm thinking of the possible ways I could have done things instead. Yet I make things worser than it originally was.

Conspiracy

2007-10-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

"Check out my matching pipes!" Hahaha! Wtf.

Jerm looks weird o.0

Yesterday was service then K-Box with Yanrong, Jerm, Levin and Hong Ming. We've been meeting up very often nowadays and I really enjoy the sessions 'cuz there's zero awkwardness and I can be as crazy as I want.

After dinner, the rest of us went to Levin's house for bourbon coke/ vodka, while Yan went home. Talking and sitting by the pool is fun. Let's do that more often. I'm feeling so nolstalgic now! Ho boy ):<

This is omgfuckingfunny. Hahahaha! Kel showed this to us after school when we were supposedly revising for UT.

Okay I gotta go sleep. UT tomorrow zomg. Ciaozx!

Let me live without this empty bliss, selfishness.

2007-10-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Tis' taken at Cheers yesterday while Lev was buying liquor o.0

Yay this Sunday should be fun!

Omg so tired. Work was a killer and it's so much worse than volleyball trainings. My back had this major cramp, so did my thighs and shoulders. Oh just everywhere. I think I deserve a higher pay. Besides, it's the eve of Hari Raya!

I just discovered this tiny mole near my left shoulder. That was bloody random.

/
Maryjane makes my life miserable.
I've got tonnes to say to you.
Then again, you don't give a sh*t.

You were right, I should've listened.
You just needed someone to talk to. Anyone.
When all you really wanted was her. And I, you.

♥ xoxo

2007-10-12T09:03:00.000+08:00

Teng Huan's been tempting me (and successfully,) to join online sprees. I just ordered this and her, this!

Yesterday, after school:
Hong Ming and Levin came outside my class to find me, then we went to Canteen A to catch up with Pat awhile and waited for Lai.

Then we went to CWP for dinner and to K-Pool for pool (duh?).

Stupid Jerm and his zombie face.

Ming!

Lev!

Thanks you guys for making my day awesome. I haven't laughed this hard for a long time and it was fun even though everyone was teasing me the whole day -.-

xoxo

Click here for the photoset!

We Are Broken/ Paramore

2007-10-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

I am outside,
And I've been waiting for the sun.
With my wide eyes,
I've seen worlds that don't belong.

My mouth is dry,
With words I cannot verbalize.
Tell me why,
We live like this.

Keep me safe inside,
Your arms like towers.
Tower over me, yeah.

'Cause we are broken.
What must we do to restore,
Our innocence,
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again,
Cause we just wanna be whole.

Lock the doors,
'Cause I'd like to capture this voice.
It came to me tonight,
So everyone will have a choice.

And under red lights,
I'll show myself it wasn't forged.
We're at war,
We live like this...

Keep me safe inside,
Your arms like towers.
Tower over me.

'Cause we are broken.
What must we do to restore,
Our innocence,
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again,
'Cause we just wanna be whole.

Tower over me...
Tower over me...

And I'll take the truth at any cost.

'Cause we are broken.
What must we do to restore,
Our innocence,
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again,
'Cause we just wanna be whole.

Mae I? o.0

2007-10-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

I'm too lazy to post up photos taken with Lai and Joanne yesterday, but we had fun! ;D

Lai and I were so crazy (okay, prolly only me) over Haato that we made a trip to Wheelock Place just for it! Then we bumped into Dad when we were heading to Lido for dinner. Hahaha! He's so funny. He didn't call my name and was like shouting (more like talking loudly) "Hello.. hello.. hello!" I was so happy and surprised to see him there and hugged him. Now I'm back home, he's not yet, and I was hoping he could fetch me and go home together. Pfft! But I still love him of course! ;D

More over at my livejournal!

Apple Ipod Nano 3rd Gen

2007-10-08T15:18:00.000+08:00

I really want this.

Someone please get the red one for me and I will love you forever! ): I want cool cool weather tomorrow worzxzx! o.0

P.S/ I love online shopping so much nowadays, it seems so hard for me to find nice clothes in town. Zzz. Yay another trade settled! New clothes new clothes. I reaaaallly need to slim down pronto. And no, it's not because of the tags the annoying 细老(read: kid brother in cantonese) left. He needs to slim down too okay! Geez!

And a birthday shout out to Priscilla whose birthday's today! Happy eighteenth Pris! (:

Genki is goooooooood i swear

2007-10-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

I think we're maaaaaaaad. We spent 77.70 SGD on lunch today at Genki Sushi, just Lai and I. Zomg. Never in my life have I spent so much on just a single meal (that is, when I have to fork out my own money). But whatever, the food was really fresh and ohmygodsosumptuous.

Lai being spastic. Haha!

The gyoza dipped in sauce (pictured right) is heavenlyyyyyy!

I've mastered the fastest fingers! -.-

Not so much of the food pictured because we were busy chowing down. Haha! I love japanese food so so much now I'm craving for it every single day.

Then the rest of the day was spent hunting for clothes.

Friday, I didn't go to school because of work.
Saturday, work. I don't know what overcame me and I teared (just a little) and stopped before I couldn't.

The people I love,

2007-10-04T23:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's MAOs gathering was one of the (al)most complete one. Albeit the short 3 hours, I had tonnes of fun with them, just stuffing ourselves silly with the BBQ stingray, went zonkers at the park, headed to Pat's house for teevee and camwhoring sessions. I'm so so so glad that we could pick things up the way we left them. I love to hear you girls laugh, it really brightens my day. The lame "whale in my stomach" thing could keep them laughing non-stop and the best thing is that, none of us has changed at all.

If CC was around, I bet we'd really go insane laughing and eating yucky concoctions made by her. Please take care of yourself and stop fainting okay! ♥

I miss 4-1: MAOs/ Naf/ Atiq/ Fat/ Tengy/ Liana/ Naqiah/ Chai Luan/ Levin/ Jerm/ Hong Ming/ Noel/ Saravanabavan Karthik/ Sampan boy ):/ Azizan/ Amirul

Just everyone, really.

I miss W35M. We are so unbelievably closely bonded together, I thought I would just die when we had to separate.

Ping ping ping, this is for you. Cheer up okay! Everything will be fine, really. It's just like the beginning of Sem 1 when you said you wanted to withdraw, but you didn't! I'll always be here to listen to your whines. If not, you can find me at Akira! So near your house! ;P

I miss Mayce, Melina, Andy, Alena, Yuling, Yiling, Lewis, Hui Ting, Kee Kai and everyone in E212. You guys are always in my heart even though I'm not in CHC anymore.

I'm so frustrated I need someone to remedy this. I wanna hear your voice and talk into the wee hours and fall in love all over again. I want to have Wild Turkey and go tipsy. I want to do so many things with you. You make my heart go giddy-up. You make butterflies in my stomach. You make me tongue-tied. I (still) love you.

P.S/ I got my first A (for this semester) ever for my computing module.
P.P.S/ I hate that you still talk to me like I'm an insensible child. That I don't know what to do at the right time. I really hate it. Shut up.

IMO

2007-10-02T19:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's class outing was really fun and the movie was HI-LA-RI-OUS man! I shall let the peektures do the talking:

School was alright today and getting more and more fun. I just hope I would learn to open up quicker in the next 4 classes. Lol!

Met up with my W35M mates during Breakout 1, you guys are dearly missed. I had so much fun with them despite the short 1 hour together and it was really fun teasing Wei Zhong and Joanne and Kok Beng. Heart you guys many many! ;D

Lai and Joanne came to look for me during Breakout 2. Then we went to our old class to find Sam and Kok Beng, but that bloody Kok wasn't around. Zzzz.

I love you two silly birds!

Yay BBQ stingray for dinner with Yannz, Hanny, Pat. I hope Hwee, CC and Allie can make it!

P.S/ I'm contemplating switching to LiveJournal permanently. Suggestions anyone?

P.P.S/ I think someone got my signals wrongly and he's scaring me.

P.P.P.S/ I hate how frivolous my thinking can be sometimes.

P.P.P.S/ You girls are really important to me. I don't wanna drift apart from y'all ):

Happy 17th Children's Day.

2007-10-01T08:28:00.001+08:00

Funny, why does everyone think poly students have holidays on Children's Day? Then again, why don't we have holidays on Children's Day? Hey, 17 is a pretty unripe age what. I like the idea of staying young forever.

Happy Children's Day!

P.S/ I'm so tired I can't focus and my eyes are about to shut. Dangggg.

On it suka!

2007-09-30T20:11:00.000+08:00

Acoustic with Penny Gun/ Library @ Orchard

"And the guy on my left, I mean girl. No. Guy. He's Kelvin." That was classic man! Hahaha!
Kel the lead guitarist!

David Mars(?), the lead singer.

I forgot this dude's name. He's the bassist.

Their band was really good, the vocals were great. Kel was awesome man, he stole the whole show (I think). Haha! Especially loved their rendition of Creep. It was really awesome man, the only bummer was that the audience were quite passive and there was this old dude sitting there. Hahaha! That was really cute. And, their drummer was missing cuz he was betting on horses. Wth?

After that, we had lunch with Kel and Yukiko at Pepper Lunch.

After we sent Joanne to her workplace, Lai and I left for work while Kel and Yukiko went to have ice cream. Dad and Mom popped by for a surprise visit during work. Then, trouble happened. I was collecting the handrolls from the sushi bar, and Dad was talking to Boss there. I didn't pay attention and the handrolls fell onto the carpet floor. Immediately, all three of them (the Boss, the wife, the son) all said "It's ok! Nevermind." Walao, so fake please. If Dad wasn't there and this happened.. I'll definitely be given a dressing down sprinkled with tonnes of hokkien vulgarities. They are so disgusting. Ugh.

Then there was this part time dude in the kitchen cuz Monkey took leave. He's gross too. He keeps flirting with Pei Si and her, being the silly girl, kept talking to him. Zzz. He's another idiot who thinks I'm cheena. Walao.

Mom saved some of her Unagi set for me, so I went behind the kitchen to eat. Then that part time dude was there, all touchy-feely with some girl (who does not work in the restaurant). Wtf. I just treated them as invisible and ate my food with Lai, then he asked me, "Where you get this from?" None of your business anyway anyhow, you repulsive moron.

Alright, enough of work.

/Went to Cityhall with Lai to meet up with Joanne, then to Esplanade to meet Kel and WZ.
/Played with candles. Zzzz
/Kel scared me out of my wits when they were at the toilet. @#$%^&*! Stupid Kel!
/Walked from Esplanade to the Fullerton to Peninsular to ROM area to Clarke Quay/MOS to Central. I almost died.
/Saw people getting dead drunk outside MOS.
/We sat by the river outside Central until morning.
/Breakfast at Liang Court Mac's.
/Kel and I cabbed home separately, while Lai, Jo and WZ took the train.

Reached home, bathed and plonked onto my bed for barely 6 hours before I woke up and I'm still really really beat. Think I'll sleep real early later. Pardon my lousy narration and lack of vocab.

All's well that ends well.

2007-09-28T14:01:00.000+08:00

Migraine. With all the weird sh*t happening to me. My body's messed up. I hope I'd be able to hold up until work ends and I'm so sad I can cry.

You mean happiness to me.

2007-09-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

Michael and I were talking about going back to Hong Kong together next January, that got me really thrilled. I haven't went back since last December and I miss Popo and Couz Jacqueline. He was looking at some promotions from Jetstar, frickin' SGD 8 to HK! Then I suddenly remembered about a recent incident about a plane splitting into two. Dad told me it was Jetstar. Zzzzz. No wonder they were having promotions! Our plans were kaput. But we're probably still going together and I'm really looking forward to itxzxzxzx! It'd be best if Chris and Jan can come along too, but he'll prolly be in Queensland by then ):

Didn't manage to see Lai or Lee Shi or Cyn or Sam today. Bumped into Joanne, WZ and Kok at Haven during breakout 2, and met up with Joanne and Kel (Ehehehe. This two've got something going on I tell you) after school and walked to the MRT station together.

Work after school tomorrow! Derrick better not piss me.

My blog's getting boring.

P.S/Dad's Nikon N60 is a beaut, can't wait to test it out soon! But I still want the D40.
P.P.S/ I hope to get my Open Water Scuba Licence soon. Like this December please!!! ):

xoxo

2007-09-26T22:03:00.000+08:00

Today was really insane.

#1 My sci module facilitator, Mr. Qian A.K.A Mr. Money left me this comment:

hi Victoria, I also feel accomplished when you feel accomplished, let us accomplish something in every lesson.

Zomgwtfbbq. Damn hilarious lah! Walao, what's with the amount of accomplish(es) man! He's really a funny dude.

#2 I was talking to Lai about something at the Woodlands library, then out of the sudden, this crazy old guy came and said something along the lines of God will help you blah blah blah. Then he went on to talk about his son, Melvin Leok? Zzz. Then he went on to talk about Matthew 7:7, and Psalms and whatever. I feel so humiliated. It's this kind of people who make Christianity out to be a joke. The whole library staff knows about him and says that he's a little outta his mind. Walao. It was really funny but discouraging. Really.

Around 8, WZ and his friend, Leonard came to find us at the library then we fooled around for a while and left.

I miss Yannz, CC, Hanny, Allie, Pat and Hwee a lot. When are we girls gonna meet up? ): MAOs never had a full reunion. I miss 4-1 and W35M and everyoneeeeee. Geez. I gotta stop being so nostalgic, but the old times sure were fun.

It's gonna be the weekends soon! I can't wait for Sat night/Sun wee hours :D

Grandpa and Grandma are leaving for China tomorrow morning and it's till next February that I'll get to see them again. Sigh. I'll miss them terribly. I hope they'd have fun there, with the big condo and the relatives and the friends ): I'm not gonna get used to them being gone so long.

Holding onto you, I keep on falling

2007-09-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's post here!

School was good today, I hope it'd continue to be so! It's the first time I feel so accomplished during Maths, and the classmates and I attended a talk on Business Journalism together.

Alrighty, that's all.

P.S/ Zomg, additional RJ to do. Bummer.
P.P.S/ Yay new book.

Roses for Dead Love

2007-09-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

Is finding someone who loves you as much as you love him that tough? Is love never lasting? Why does it seem to me that time will always outrun love? Why do people shortchange love from others? I can't seem to hold my head together any longer. It's too much for me to take, and I have to act like nothing's wrong in my life at all. I'm feeling so exhausted, so nauseous. I'm almost revolted by the word "love".

What does it really mean to love? Why do people not think of the consequences of surrending your heart to that certain someone when he happens to be the wrong person all along. Why do we still love when we know it's not being reciprocated? Why can't we think rationally when it comes to love? Why does it seem that we never learn?

When we learn, we grow. Yet, there always seem to be a certain emptyness/hollowness when love isn't around. Is love all we're living for? My eyes burn, my head throbs, my heart aches. It sucks to have this happen once every few days. My being can't hold it any longer. Every part is crumpling into small tiny parts. I'm increasingly irritable and prickly and edgy. I don't like the current person I am the slightest bit. I whine, I complain, I cry, I rant, but why does it seem that nothing's changed at all. I wait -this is the first time I've ever been so patient- but it's taking way too long, and my patience's running out. When I need someone there, no one's there. Why does my life seem so bleak, so laughable...

I ever wondered, ten years down the road, what a person I would be. What kind of life I'd be leading? Would I already forget about my fears? Would I have found my soulmate? Would I still be alive by then? Somehow, I can't picture anything. Nothing at all. What does that mean?

And my supposed best friend seems to have found a new best friend.

You're a falling star, you're my getaway car.

2007-09-24T08:28:00.000+08:00

It's 8 in the morning, with the rain pouring (no longer). As usual, I'm in school early and it's freezink!

So yesterday, I met Lai and Joanne, and we went shopping. Twasn't so good for me cuz I didn't see anything I like! ):

Blah blah blah..

We went to Gloria Jean's for some salad and drinks.

School's a mundane and boring affair.

This is weird.

2007-09-23T11:13:00.001+08:00

Work was really slack these two days, 'cept for the part when the sonofabitch Derrick made me really pissed. Then he was all in a chirpy mood 'cuz his girlfriend brought her family for dinner. Zzz.

Whatever.

Friday! This mediacorp actor Zhang Jin Quan Adam came to dine. Zomgwtfbbqhot. Hahahaha! I went googoo and gaga-ing over him.

Okay, church now. Ciao!

I dislike how sensitivity attempts to kill

2007-09-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

God, I miss the insane times we had during lessons, the chalet, the numerous outings together. From the bottom of my heart, I love all my classmates in W35M. I really do.

Photo taken yesterday.

After school today, went over to W4 to meet Lai and Joanne then over to Food Court A and met up with Kok Beng and Lance. Joen, Jia Yu and Juliana were also there when we reached and all of us lamented about W35M. After that, met up with an online seller then Lai and I headed to Central and we had Pepper Lunch for dinner. We sat by the river with our rapidly-disolving-icecream and I started to get really pissed off when the ice cream dripped all over my jeans and ran down my hands. I sweared until even I finished the ice cream. Geez! Then it was Lai's turn to get annoyed. The ants started to bite her and a cricket hopped onto her feet, she freaked out and screamed. But I loved the scenery there, really nice, pleasant, comfortable, warm. I'll bring Dad's SLR out one day for pretty peektures.

The ones taken with my phone should suffice for now.

After that, both of us just got into a really bad mood 'cuz we nearly got lost and she couldn't find a suitable place to submit her RJ. Before I forget, we bumped into Hong Ming at Funan and he, being the usual ol' perv. told me how cute you-know-who was. Hahaha! After checking out Raffles City and being even more pissed, Lai left home while I, went to Akira to find Dad and Mom came along soon after. Dad was playing dice with Boss, and the loser has to drink. It was rather funny watching them play. Being there and not working is so weird. I love my colleagues there; the kitchen staff and the fellow waitresses. They make me really happy ;D

And today, Xiao Li told me she didn't believe my dad when he said I was his daughter. She thought he was kidding. That'd show you, you *insert appropriate term*. What lah, I really look like cheena meh. Kaozxzxz. She herself is cheena lah. Whatever (rolls eyes).

Yay work tomorrow means $$!

I don't know what's wrong with you. What the fuck did I do huh? This sadness is slowly turning into wrath, and you wouldn't wanna incur mine. Really. You low life.

P.S/ Lee Shi, please cheer up! Just keep trying and never give up a'ights? We know you can do it ;D

Would broken be easily fixed?

2007-09-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

Why do I feel so shiteous? Is it just me or everybody? I miss W35M, where I can be so comfortable with everyone, where I can go zonkers and laugh until my guts retch. I think I understand how Marly felt. Ping, I'm feeling the same way you do right now! Just so you know, you're not alone. Thanks to Lai, Joanne and WZ, I could act normally after school. The usual fooling around and laughing at random people on the streets (no ill intentions though). "Under my umbrella, ella, ella, eh, eh, eh, under my ..." Hahahaha! I love you guys.

And now, I don't wanna have anymore feuds/enemies. Enough of them. I wanna be happy, love and be loved. I reckon I'd enough of sadness. I'd like it to go away forever. Please, go away and never come back. Sometimes I don't feel like myself, I didn't remember being so pessimistic. I remember once ago, a long long time ago, I loved people, I loved life, I loved the sun, the rain, the moon, the stars. It's not the same anymore. I'm feeling so down but I can't bring myself to weep and it's choking me. I feel tears wanting to spill, but they don't. They hide behind, somewhere deep within. Sometimes I feel like I've been slapped in the face.

I need someone to talk to before I lose it. I get affected too easily. Most of the time, when I look angry/pissed/serious with my brows furrowed, I'm actually upset. So don't get me wrong, because you don't know me.

T.T

2007-09-18T18:32:00.000+08:00

I had an emotional outburst this morning. Simply put, I cried. I didn't know why either, and I still don't. I'm aware of my dependency on people. Guess it's time for me to learn all over again.

Today was surprisingly good. Most of the classmates've started to warm up and it was really fun just bullsh*tting on MSN. After school, I waited for Lai Yan, Cyn, Sam and Lee Shi at the W3/4 area. I saw Cyn a while later and was waiting for her to spot me, but she didn't! When she finally did, she burst out laughing 'cuz I was wearing white and "blended in with the walls". Geez!

The contractions in my uterus was so unbearable that I almost fainted while walking towards Woodlands MRT. The girls said my face/lips were really pale. Luckily for Cyn's panadol, otherwise I would've already died and gone to heaven. Okay, maybe hell.

Anyways, someone (read: old, naggy, irritating person A.K.A Lee Shi) commented that my blog entries are getting shorter and shorter. But who cares right! Hahahahaha! Just some old nosey parker. Kidding.

Note to self:
Mighty Fine tee
White tunic
F21 Dino Tank
57 SGD in total// And maybe that bucket drawstring bag. Oh my...

I love shopping online! ;D

Dinner-time.

15 Die-Cut

2007-09-17T23:39:00.001+08:00

I wonder how everyone's day #1 was like.

Mine was really mundane and slow-paced. Any slower, I'd have taken a shot at my temple. At first, I just though I was going to die. And I'm nervous when it comes to meeting new people! @#$%^&*!! So I did, trip over my words a couple o' times. Later in the day, it was going -not really well, but still- okay. The girls in my team even gossipped about who's cute and stuff during the 6P (on MSN), that is.

The good thing is I met up with the clique during both breakouts, and us, being extremely nostalgic, went back to W35M. W35M isn't the same without everyone. Really. But hey, life's full of changes (not hope) and we gotta do what we gotta do! Even though I'm really apprehensive about what's gonna happen tomorrow, it'd just blow over soon. Hey look! *snap!* And Day #1's already ended.

*crosses fingers* I'm just trying to be optimistic when I'm really not.

Whattowear?Whattowear?Whattowear?Whattowear?Whattowear?Whattowear?Whattowear?

Hey yaw, Imma social outkast.

2007-09-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

Today was one of the bestest day of my 3-week holiday because:
/ I had a really great time out with my parents and Jem.
/ Levin (??) and Hong Ming (???) asked me out for pool siol, but I didn't meet them up
/ I got to catch up with some pals.
/ B&J, Ikoi ♥

It is also the worst day because:
/ It's the last day of my 3 week break
/ New semester (which really means a new class). Boo to that!

I am fucking nervous about tomorrow. What should I wear? Should I smile to everyone and be friendly? Should I this or that or this or that or this....? @#$%^&*!! Okay, chillz Victoria! Man, I sure hope I don't look unfriendly or unapproachable. I think I will update every hour tomorrow. Zomg.

Pointe is,

2007-09-15T11:59:00.000+08:00

/ Got a brand new Wetseal top for just 14 buckeroos! Online shopping rockzxz!
/ Work was @#$%^&*!!! and god-damn tiring.
/ Dr. Vivian Balakrishnan came by for dinner today, with his wife, 4 (or 5?) kids and father-in-law in tow (drop dead gorgeous family)
/ I officially declare that I hate/despise/loathe/detest my Boss' son.
/ I have a love-hate relationship with my job.
/ I bumped into Azizan (my favourite classmate who thinks he's all so sexy) on the train.
/ He was wearing a thick hairband with hearts of pastel colours. (Go figure!)
/ He looks flabbier.
/ I miss 4-1!
/ I miss (almost) everyone in W35M.

Lolwhatfuck?

2007-09-14T11:59:00.000+08:00

I tried to hold on (to You),
but my fingers slip everytime I try.

Updates tomorrow. The past two days at work were awfully hectic.

P.S/ Zhou Chong Qing, Wu Pei Fen with a couple of DJs and their PAs/whatever dined in yesterday and made a hell of a din.

P.P.S/ If you insist on interpreting things that way, I can't help you. At all.

P.P.P.S/ Note to self: Bishan MRT 5.45 PM on Thursday/Meet seller

Sometimes it's best to be kept in the dark.

2007-09-13T01:03:00.000+08:00

I met up with Lai today for retail therapy.

Chronologically,
/ Ajisen @ Takashimaya
/ Venezia ice cream
/ Topshop, F21, Cotton On at Wisma
/ FEP
/ Wisma again
/ Heeren
/ Pontian Wanton Noodles @ Graffiti Cafe
/ E-Donuts (were better than I expected)
/ Camwhoring at The Istana Park

The photos taken at The Istana Park.

I'm actually looking forward to work tomorrow.

A hundred and million things I feel/want now.

2007-09-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

/ My eyes are puffy, red and swollen (from rubbing my eyes right after playing with JJ).
/ It has been eons since my last manicure.
/ I need one (because I suck at painting my own nails).
/ I'm craving for japanese food after having to face it for 4 days consecutively without touching any!
/ That kangaroo-pouched grey hoodie top from bloodredlippie. I want!
/ I just viewed all my new classmates on yandao.
/ There are no cute guys in my class (?)
/ zomgwtfbbqi'mscared!
/ Lai's got a classmate who looks like The Hunchback Of Notre Dame. S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y.
/ I dug up quite a few vintage bags from mom's wardrobe, and I'm using them! :D
* That's to tell certain people that I do not splurge unnecessarily and I do re-use things.
/ My MP3 totally died on me. Ah! How am I gonna survive the long train rides! ):

:D Alright, I'm a pretty happy girl today.

Legends still die.

2007-09-10T11:59:00.000+08:00

Add me as your friend on LJ and if I add you back, you'd be able to read my entry.

P.S/ No dubious/anonymous people please. At least comment to tell me who you are! :D
P.P.S/ 6 years since that horrible 9/11 in 2001.
P.P.P.S/ Anyone in W34Q? Let me know please!

Ok. Time for Plan A

2007-09-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Thursday evening to the wee hours of Friday was spent with my dearest CO mates at my alma mater. The BBQ was fun, and the facilities in school are so much better. The rifle range was revamped to an air-conditioned room for the band and is now reconstructed to a hall/lecture hall thing, and it's really awesome. CO and Choir did the recordings for the album there. The area outside the F&N practical rooms is totally kewlzxzxz, it's like a coffeeshop in the 60's.

Ah, the benefits of being one of the future schools.

Met up with Lai today for some shopping. While waiting for her at Orchard MRT, I saw Vivian, then Clara and her friend. Then we went to FEP and kept bumping into Clara. That girl is so cute, she pinched my cheeks when she saw me. I miss the glorious pri school days. We snagged ourselves some really good buys from Cotton On (A-hem Lai, thank me ;P) and got ourselves each a pair of slip-ons from M)phosis. I am so happy with my purchase.

After that, we went to work at this Japanese restaurant - Akira (Dad's friend's the boss). It was really slack at the beginning, but 7.30 PM onwards was I.N.S.A.N.E. I tell you. But heck, the moolah was worth it, not enough though. We had supper at the 24 hour foodcourt behind, then Dad sent Lai to Tiong Bahru MRT and home. We're going there to work again tomorrow! Right now, my feet are sore from standing and I am feckin' tired.

G'night!

A torch to end all torches

2007-09-06T17:22:00.000+08:00

And you call yourselves my friends. What, friends don't help each other when they're in trouble? Friends don't pull each other back when they're slipping? They let go their hands and allow them fall into the bottomless pit?

Ha, friends. Indeed.

The friendship we've built over the past 10 odd years is nothing; nothing at all. What are friends if they don't care. They shouldn't be called friends, acquaintance is a more appropriate term. And what, I'm coming back to be judged by all of you? To be an outcast? To walk away quietly without any of you noticing? Oh wait, it is like that already isn't it? What a joke.

Why does the word "resent" come to my mind when I think about you?

You sweep me off my feet

2007-09-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

Met up with Yan Rong at Taman Jurong Multi-Storey Hawker Ctr & Market and guess who we bumped into...?

After taking photo, I showed him the photo we took.
"My hair is so messy, didn't style. Came from home. Haha."

Nat Ho and Elvin Ng. Zomgwtfbbqyay! Hahahahahaha! Yes, be envious you girls! Of all places, I least expected to bump into them at Jurong?!

*smiles widely*

They totally made my day which was ruined earlier by the irresponsible online seller who arrived 45 mins later than our agreed time.

Yan Rong and I then went to Jurong Green Park to clown about.

Then I left to church for rehearsal. I am on Cloud Nine! My GPA isn't so bad either. Aiya, as long as I'm satisfied.

I dove right in,

2007-09-04T16:58:00.000+08:00

Am I getting old or what. Does anyone know what water babies are?

How I spent my Monday, in summary:

Lai's blog for detailszxzx.

Sometimes, staying in just wasting time surfing the net/reading a good novel/watching re-runs on tv can be fun too. It would be perfect if it'd rain today. I'm with a stuffy nose, green (eeew) phelgm in my throat and regular sneezing fits but I'm not complaining- at least my fringe's growing back. I didn't pick up your calls, cuz I don't know what to say/how to behave when I see you. But, you don't really care, do you?

OMGWTFBBQ

2007-09-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

Please get your own style, not mine for fuck's sake. I don't know how long I can stand this.

@#$%^&*(!!

Coconut tree, umbrella, and the mask.

2007-08-31T17:47:00.000+08:00

Teacher's Day this year is kinda boring, the amount of ex students who went back to JSS was a lot lesser than the previous years. As for the Maos, only Cecilia, Shi Han and I went back.

Ms. Phua has given birth to a baby boy named Mark/Marc -I don't know- and is on maternity leave, Ms. Low/Mrs. Chua's baby bump is hugeeeeee and it's a boy! Mdm. Yu gave birth to a girl! Man, I miss Mr. Dimus Choong ): Mr. Chinny Chin-Chin said I slimmed down. o.O

After the celebrations, Cecilia, Shi Han, Levin, Jermaine, Noel, Moon Kian, Wei Xiang, Leonard and I headed to J.P. for lunch at Pizza Hut and Miss Tang joined us very much later, just having a cuppa coffee. Alison met up with us at J.P. and we window-shopped around while waiting for our tables. That mad woman Cecilia bought 6 bras, wtf! I've never gone on a bra-spree before. The four of us bought push-pops at John Little. Strawberry Grape Strawberry Grape :D

Naqiah was working at Pizza Hut when we were having our meal, so we were disturbing her from working properly and took pictures with her. And Cecilia, as usual, made up her disgusting concoction (using pepper, chilli, cheese, mushroom soup, Tang's coffee, chocolate, parsley, coke and some other things I cannot remember) and suggested playing zhong ji mi ma. The concoction smelled f***ing bad and Miss Tang couldn't take it.

I think the small get-together was great even though not the entire class was present. I'm really glad we could pick things up the way we left them. Makes me miss 4-1 even more! ):

Everyone seemed to have lost weight except for lepeh Au and somebody, especially Levin! He lost 18 kilograms leh. Zomggggggg. From his original weight of 100 kg, he's now 82 and he's looking pretty fine to me.

"Aiyo, you coconuts!" (: Happy Teacher's Day!

Levin, go play tennis together leh. Heh ;p

Kalson was with his mother tongue classmates and teacher next to us!

Yan Rong, Pat, Hwee, Atiqah, Fat, Naf, Tengy, Liana, Chai Luan, Hong Ming, Saravanabavan Karthik Narayanan, Azizan (!), Rene pok who's currently in the States, Amirul, Joseph, Shankar, Wei Lie (?)... you guys are missed!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

P.S/ My stomach's so bloated I'm actually wondering if there's a 5 month old foetus inside. Garghh.. Bloody hell.

A static lullaby

2007-08-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

I went to meet Lai at Yishun MRT, and we headed off to Braddell for Botak Jones! It's absolutely scrumptious and well, verrrrrry filling.

Cajun Chicken (Mine)

Fish N' Chips (Lai's)

We took more than an hour to finish our meal, and by the end of it, we were so stuffed we could hardly walk. Then we headed to Novena in hope of some shopping, but the stuff there are trashy/tacky/tasteless.

The two of us then slacked at Mango Lingo, and I love the ambience there. It's really relaxing and comfortable. Enjoy teh peektures, I'm lazy.

If you could see into my soul,

2007-08-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

The initial plan for today was to:

#1 Go Suntec City with Lai for donuts.
Then both of us weren't in the mood (or rather, I) so we cancelled it.

#2 Colin asked us, Eugene and WZ to Night Safari.
But! Eugene was broke and WZ had to attend a birthday party, thus twas' cancelled again.

#3 Colin asked the same few people to town for a movie.
So we met up! The plans still got changed, and we went shopping instead.

Eugene got himself a yellow striped polo tee -that resembles my grandpop's- from Topman. Both Lai and I eyed stuff from Topshop but we didn't get them (yet). We then headed towards Paragon and I got myself a pair of black leggings from Miss Selfridge. Miss Sixty was a total disappointment. The two misters, Colin and WZ left soon after, leaving me with Lai and Eugene. That stupid Eugene is a brandwhore I tell you. We went to Heeren to check out Energie. I must say, the clothes there are sh*t ugly.

Had my really late dinner at Grafitti Cafe and Eugene, his supper. That Eugene is mad, just take a look at the peektures.

He really had us cracked up. After that, the three of us walked towards Plaza Sing 'cuz his bike was parked there. We slacked at TCC for a really short while then my dad came to pick me up and Eugene sent my dearest Lai home *grins*

And here's a latest peek at Eugene's good brother,

it's your honour, arse! ;D

Botak Jones with Lai tomorrow! I've had quite enough of town now.

Forget December. Forget me.

2007-08-28T22:58:00.001+08:00

Does anyone have any in this list? Click here to view list! Quote your best price and I'll get back to you!

I'm more than a wee bit disappointed that tomorrow's baking session with Cecilia, Shi Han and Yan Rong's cancelled and... I don't really feel like going back to JSS on Friday. No particular reason.

I'm spending my holidays mindlessly and I hate it.

I think this picture's funny with all the funny hand gestures and look at Sam. Haha!

Ehehehe. Lee Shi, revenge is schweet!

I can't be blamed if you're disliked by many, can I?

2007-08-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

I slept from 12 to 8 PM today, was totally drained after 20 hours without sleep/ barbeque/ one pathetic shot of chivas with coke and I turned scarlet (good blood circulation, that is)/ close to 4 hours of cycling from pasir ris to changi and back (think: a sore arse and cramps in both thighs and my knees hurting like f***). Even though the chalet was only 2D1N, I really enjoyed meself. Kudos to Lee Shi and Cyndy for organising a chalet within such short notice and putting everything together really well. I must say, I loved the sambal prawns! Sad thing is, I'm allergic to them and alcohol and tidbits/food with additives, but I ate them anyway. The funniest thing that happened was when Colin got drunk because he downed 2 neat shots of Chivas at one go. That guy is siao. He couldn't even remember what he did when he was sloshed.

We cycled to the infamous Changi Park and saw transvestites/gays/man with titties/whatever. Like what Kelvin said, they looked exactly like women except for their masculine voices. Yuck. Kel was worried that the transvestities might hit on him. Anyways, it was rather freaky. The strenuous up-hills were the killer man, almost died at the 35-40 degree up slope. I was the first girl to arrive back at the chalet, and third overall; with Kok Beng being first, and Colin the second. *beams*

Photos are a plenty and Norin's DSLR is the sh*t yo! I can't wait to land my hands on one. Will upload them the mo' I get all.

Right, I'll go hit the sack now. Alcohol's the way to go if you wanna sleep throughout the night, but drinking alone is pretty boring. Bah! My whole body's red again, I should've known.

Sound of the Sun

2007-08-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

It makes me happy when I see you laugh so heartily. I hope everything will stay this way... I don't ask for much.

Tomorrow's gonna be really fun! :D

Milo Ventimiglia is mine!

2007-08-25T15:13:00.000+08:00

All mine! ;p
Milo Ventimiglia is teh sex. I'm watching Heroes again on Star World, and Ugly Betty will be airing on Wednesdays starting next week! Yay!

Tralalalala-lalalala

2007-08-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

This is le tunic top/dress I got from F21. I've always been in love with quirky prints. Hell, I'm not gonna bother about what other people say anymore. I'm just gonna do/wear what I like. But people @ JCC will never get to see me don this in flesh. Neverrrrrrrrrr!
And I received the belts this morning, so yay!

P.S/ Ignore the droopy eyes.

Bah, I miss my long locks. I can't wait for them to grow back and imma do something about my excess flab. Staying at home all day doesn't help, at all! Yanrong, when're we going to jog! I'm bored stiff at home with absolutely nothing to do. I've finally completed Season One of Heroes and the finale was utter C-R-A-P. Anyone knows how many episodes of Ugly Betty (Season One) there are? 'Cuz there's only 23 episodes available on the net and it seems weird for it to end that way. Boo! And the new Jodi Picoult book; Second Glance, is kinda creepy 'cuz it's about supernatural beings and it's the seventh month of the Lunar (!!!). I know it's made-up but hey, who wouldn't get the creeps?

Can anyone tell me how I'm gonna survive my bus-train ride on Sunday to Yishun?!! My MP3 decided to go wonky at this time, and I can't upload my 140+ amount of new songs: which means listening to the same ol' crap over and overrrrrr. Ho boy! I shall invest in a trusty ipod, but the prev. shuffle has had given me some problems. Argh! Suggestions, anyone? I am going job hunting soon, but I gotta stop procrastinating first. Job offers anyone?

Did I mention that Munchy Donuts are the best I've tasted? Totally lip-smackin'!
Mrs Ng asked me to play in the percussion for CO's performance and I'm going to help out for the camp! Hahaha. I miss everyone, with the exception of a few.

/Edited
Please pray for my dearest Calister who's currently in China. She's supected to be suffering from food poisoning with fever, coughing and the runs. Please get well my dear.

Without ever realising that love and hate are really just a thin line apart.

2007-08-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

I hate you when you dictate me.
I hate you when you don't listen.
I hate you when you're being unreasonable.
I hate you when you're being biased.
I hate you when you make me think I'm never good enough.
I hate you when you say you don't trust me.
I hate you when you don't appreciate me.
I hate you when you disapprove everything that I like/do/say.
I hate you when you make me so frustrated that I pull out my hair.
I hate you when you make me wanna run away.
I hate you when you're insensitive.
I hate you when you say things that make me cry.
I hate you when you rant and rave like an insane person.
I hate you when you always have that look of disdain.
I hate you because you treat us very differently.
I hate you because I don't understand why you can't never see from my point of view.
I hate you because I love you.

I'm almost on cloud #11

2007-08-22T23:09:00.001+08:00

I'm in a happy happy mood this week.

/ I got my nails painted in a new colour.
/ I just got my hands on a Jodi Picoult book yesterday.
/ I bought a cute little tunic/dress from F21.
/ Ordered a skinny leather belt with Lai and it's arriving by mail soon!
/ Everything's going terrrrrrrrrific (apart from slight emotional inconsistencies)

Even though I've been heading to school, I've never actually attended any lessons this week! Except for today, that is. Introduction to Communication Practice is the only module I've never missed throughout the past 16 weeks of school and today's the last. Bala ended class at 12 PM today! She's the awesomestzxzxz :D Then 12 in class decided to have lunch at Pizza Hut together. Now I'm still considering if I should give school a miss or not - tomorrow. Bah! RP system suxxor. And JJ's looking real eagerly at me now. He thinks I've got food with me. My silly boy never fails to make me smile!

I've to apologise to a couple of great great great great people in my life for taking my sh*t these few days/weeks? I've been a big mean b*tch, and none of you got mad at me. Thank God for you guys, I now know who my real friends are. I love, appreciate, love and adore you guys all the same. You-know-who-you-are! (:

P.S/ I am very unhappy cuz I want to buy many things -but I am effin' broke-: That H&M hoodie, that pair of crotchet espadrilles, that fisheye (!), D40, more drainpipes, more tops... sigh. I wanna die. If only I had SGD 1000, I'm not greedy. I don't ask for much..? ):
P.P.S/ I oft. contradict myself.

♥ for the long nights, i have you

2007-08-21T07:57:00.000+08:00

I find a million ways to keep myself from the cold, but you're still the one to warm my heart. My comfortable and familiar.

cakes, pies and everything nice!

2007-08-20T20:41:00.000+08:00

License to Wed is the bomb. You've got to watch it! Robin William's character as Rev. Frank really cracked me up, so did his acolyte; this really adorably obese pasty white boy. All in all, I loved the show.

I've been cutting a lot of classes lately, and this is the last week of Semester 1. I am not looking forward to Semester 2 at all. Right, I shall stop whining. I need a job for the holidays, don't mind working part time on school days. Any job offers?

My Nat Ho pie is kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkyute! Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho Nat Ho

:D

P.S/ Con Air is one nice heck of a movie.
P.P.S/ In case you didn't know, I don't give two flying f**ks about you and/or your worthless opinions.
P.P.P.S/ I love you no matter who/what/where/when/why/how.

I could just stare at the ceiling forever and drop dead.

2007-08-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

Why don't you people ever listen!

No one really wins this time.

2007-08-18T00:40:00.001+08:00

Who likes to be around a person who's sad 24/7?

No one.

Pluck

2007-08-16T22:38:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been selfish? To a point where the feelings of others' isn't worth a nickel? Everything you care about is yourself, yourself, yourself, yourself and yourself. The victim suffers from your indifference. No matter how callous you are, he/she takes it all in. You take his/her genuine care and concern/love/tolerance/big-heartedness for granted. Then one day, you blow it all. When your friend was going all out to salvage this one-sided friendship, you flick it aside. After losing this friend, you regret your actions/words that wounded him/her so deeply. Maybe you wouldn't even think so.

"Hello? I'm wrong? How can I ever be wrong?" *rolls eyes

Just like that, and you've probably lost the once-in-a-lifetime true friendship. Kudos to yourself.
In my case, I've been both the victim and the crook. Which I truly regretted for ever letting that egoistical person manipulate me, and of course, for doing a boo-boo myself.

Then the self-righteous people. Always telling others not to do this, this is very bad. Have you never had a slip-up in your life? Seriously, do some self-reflection. When you sneer at someone for doing a 'tut-tut', look at yourself. What you are doing to that someone, is exactly what they've been doing and you wind up making a fool out of your so-called righteousness.

Do you believe one can truly sit on the fence? Well, I don't.

Right now, I'm feeling indignant. No one ever took me seriously. Maybe I should stop laughing/fooling around. Perhaps then, people will stop belittling me. They make me feel small and unappreciated. My heart's bruised and battered by the hideousness of human nature. I just wish a cherub will make me see the light again.

Physical exhaustion leads to distress. I haven't been sleeping well. My body's a train wreck now. I need a vacation.

Someday I'll take you away from all of this.

Will you really?
x

So why don't you go trigger-happy?

2007-08-16T08:54:00.000+08:00

I reached school at 0727 this morning. Insane I know. Today's exactly a week away from my semestral holidays, afterwhich will be a new semester with a different class. I like to have more friends, but I really suck at meeting new people and that, sucks majorly. People've told me that I looked fierce(?) and arrogant(?), but I beg to differ. I am/was shy, really.

I can't entirely say I'm happy in W35M, but I like my classmates, well... most of them. You can't possibly like everyone, or expect everyone to like you, right?

Alright, UT's starting in a couple o' minutes.
Ciao for now!

quizzy wizzy

2007-08-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
/ Nikon D40 or Canon Digital Ixus 70
/ Eyelet Dress(es)
/ Casio Calculator Watch
/ A queen sized platform bed
/ SGD 500

Answer the following questions:

/ The person who tag you is: Cyndy

/ Your relationship with her is: Classmates/friends

/ Your 5 impressions of her: Emotional, loves to sing, good actress, sexy wor (hehehehehe), humourous.

/ The most memorable thing she had done for you: We've only known each other for 4 months leh!

/ The most memorable words she had said to you: We've only known each other for 4 months leh!

/ If he/she becomes your lover, you will: I'm not a lesbian!

/ If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be: Told you already!

/ If he/she becomes your enemy, you will: it'd never happen :D

/ If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: O.o

/ The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is: Eh.

/ Your overall impression of him/her is: Mighty fine!

/ How you think people around you will feel about you?: I'm fun-loving?

/ The characteristic(s) you love of yourself is/are: Good question.

/ On the contrary, the characteristic(s) you hate of yourself is/are: hot-tempered with little or no self control.

/ The most ideal person you want to be is: Someone pretty with a big big heart.

/ For people that care and like you, say something to them: Appreciated.

/ Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you:
0001x Hui Yu
0002x Cecilia
0003x Shi Han
0004x Pat
0005x Yan Rong
0006x Allie
0007x Cassandra
0008x Marly
0009x Teng Huan
0010x Wayne

Who is no. 6 having relationship with? Me ;p
Is no. 9 a male or female? (Fe)male.
If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? Definitely. Heh
How bout no. 8 and 5? No way jose!
What is no.2 studying about? Accountancy
When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3? Just recently.
What kind of music band does no.8 like? Indie. I think.
Does no.1 has any siblings? Yeap.
Will you woo no.3? Eeeeeeeeeeeek!
How about no.7? Siao.
Is no.4 single? Yes.
What’s the surname of no.5? Tan ta tan tan tan
What’s the name of no.10? Winnie Ma Wai Yarn
What’s the hobby of no.4? Shopping for crumpler bags. Haha!
Do no.5 and 9 get along well? Of course!
Where is no.2 studying at? Singapore Polytechnic
Talk something casually about no.1? She's a vainpot! ;p
Have you try developing feelings for no.8? Of course! I love her ;p
Where does no.9 live at? Pioneer Mall there wor.
What color does no.4 like? Easy one. Green!
Are no.5 and 1 best friends? Yeappp!
Does no.7 likes no.2? That you'd have to ask Cass.
How do you get to know no.2? Sec 3 classmate wor.
Does no.1 have any pets? Used to have an arowana that just passed away recently.
Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? So hot I can melt.

---------- END ----------

Another one from Cyn too>

Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things, habits or little known facts about themselves. At the end of the game, you must choose 7 people to be tagged. People who get tagged must do the above stated on their blogs. No tag backs!

/ I am very (note: very) unglam.
/ I am a major procrastinator.
/ I like to sleep on low beds. I hate hate hate hate hate my bunk bed!
/ I can only sleep with an eye mask on.
/ I can laugh for a very long time, with no apparent reason at all.
/ I have skin allergy since young.
/ I hold my pee for as long as I can because I hate the toilet!
/ I used to love doodling on wooden armchairs, lamp shades, walls at home; when I was young of course.
/ I only use the red blanket with cartoon window cleaner monkeys, circus monkeys, newspaper monkeys, monkey in oversized pjs. No others for me.
/ I always 'steal' my brother's and dad's tee shirts.

Anyone can do it but these are the people tagged by yours truly: Melina, Nafisa, Wayne, Iskandar, the MAOs.

That's all. Phew!

Plain White Tees

2007-08-11T00:49:00.000+08:00

Scandalous pictures of my brother and his gay pal, Terrence while talking to their "friends" on the phone in my room.

How retarded.

How absolutely gay, and I'm loving it.

Indiana Jones

2007-08-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

All 4 of us wore havaianas yesterday.

And really overdue photos:

Singapore's 42!

2007-08-09T02:10:00.000+08:00

On the eve of National Day
Headed to Red Bar to meet up with Vivian, ZL, Eldred, Wei Lie and their friends. Though it was a short time, I had fun. Vivian, ignore what that bugger is doing. He/She is just trying to bring you down with malicious insults.

National Day
Sad to say, I'm not much of a patriot so it didn't really concern me. Impromptu gathering with Yan Rong, Pat and Hwee to Marina Bay. We caught a glimpse of the fireworks and the amount of people there is just really scary. I'm never having steamboat there, ever again. The level of hygiene was low, the service was sh*t, our table was almost on fire, my hair smelled of oil/grease and whatnots and I almost choked on smoke. Singaporeans, well, were showing the Singapore spirit by their kiasuness that night. The bus was already packed with people, yet some fuckheads still squeezed their way on it. Hell, it was worse than any mosh pit.

Haven't gotten hold of the photos yet.

Who's selfish and who's sorry?

2007-08-08T12:06:00.000+08:00

I'm never gonna explore new places ever. Yesterday was like a wild-goose chase, but it's ok cuz I still managed to get some stuff.

Lai and I headed to B. Timah for Roti John at Al Azhar, and cabbed down to the Salvation Army only to be disappointed. So we took 178 to B. Batok and took the train to Bugis (Bugis Village and Parco), Neither of us got anything so we wanted to cab down to Haji Lane but the cabby didn't know where it is. Zzzzzz. So we gave up and headed to Orchard.

I got myself a pair of grey drainpipes, nail polish and reserved a camera bag. Yay! Victoria is a happy girl. Afterwhich we slacked at Gelare and headed to Wisma. Saw a famous (or notorious) person at Topshop and her dressing totally resembled an SPG.

On the way home, I bumped into Noel. I spotted him only when he messaged me. Then I went over to talk to him and we both alighted at Lakeside. I miss 4-1! Which reminds me, that I saw Bernadine Lim (she didn't see me) that morning when my dad sent my brother to Turf City for their X-Country.

No photos.

***********

I'm meeting Vivian, ZL, Yaorong and a couple of their friends at Red Bar later.
:D

Electronik Beatzxs.

2007-08-06T18:37:00.000+08:00

Great. This is the second time the kid has cancelled tuition on me, and it's barely two weeks since I've started. Mom says it's because he didn't complete the homework I've assigned him. Well, then I guess I can't blame him cuz I used to do that all the time. Heck. I don't even bother to complete the homework. That's prolly why Hui Jun always got pissed with me. Retribution time! Ho.

Today's module, as usual, was boring with a capital B. I expected the new facilitator (Mr. Lee) to be a downright anal person, but he wasn't - and pretty kindly at that. But (!) he's a tad annoying with his nags. Other than that, he's alright.

I'm really looking forward to retail therapy with my dearest Lai tomorrow! It's been a while since I've done any real shopping. I'm gonna get nagged at by people. Whatever. It's none of their business anyway.

I swear the tolerance left for my maid is just this much. Any more and she's gonna get it. I'd really like her to get the pronunciation of my name right. Vik-tawr-ee-uh (Victoria), not Vik-taw-yah damnit! Bah! Wtf, she served my ham toast with peanut butter? Who eats ham with peanut butter? Are you insane? @#$%^&*!! What the f*** is wrong with you.

Man, I've got a short fuse recently. Sorry to anyone I've snapped at.

[Update @ 9:45]
Yay! Dad's back!

Screwd/

2007-08-05T19:55:00.000+08:00

I wish I didn't act like a bitch sometimes.
Millions of apologies to you, you and you.

How now brown cow?

2007-08-04T01:26:00.000+08:00

I am unhappy about a million and one things now.

Am I such a bad influence on your (note: "your" is not limited to one) kids? I don't steal or rob or murder or teach your kids to smoke or do drugs. Why do I feel snubbed? Ignored. Ostracized. To think that we're supposed to be a family (note: I'm not talking about my real family of course). I despise phoney people. They're the most despicable bunch of the most despicable. I don't even like turning up anymore, 'cuz it no longer feels like home.

And you you you you you! Go do some bloody self-reflection damnit. Do I look like an android that's always at your beck n' call. I rather be ballooned to 795420 x my size than to ever take sh*t from you again. You hear me?

Why is it always like this between us? I missed you. Though I was really hostile to you. Maybe we should both wake up. I guess things are similar for you. With her.

*******
I wanna be a zookeeper. Hell yeah.

Wish/To-do List:
Casio Calculator Watch
Red/White/Black drainpipes
Grey/Black/Red cardigans
~~Bangles~~
Opaque leggings
Leather shoulder bag
Eyelet Dress
Topshop sandals
Spankin' new phone
A Nikon SLR/ Canon Digital Ixus 70
Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows
Junk Food tees
Tons of sleep
Workout at teh gym

Egads!

Peek-a-boo, I see you.

2007-08-03T08:57:00.000+08:00

W35M visited the Haunted House for some charity shizz, and I can't believe I paid $3 for something didn't managed to scare me and got my toes injured. Eugene did a better job as a "ghost" when we just entered the dark holding room. And wtf, the people who managed the haunted house were total dickheads.

(Click here for peektures.)

Anyway, Ram entered the class not long ago and I'm bored so I did this:

Copy.
Paste.
Answer.
Questions.
In.
One.
Word.

1. Where is your cell phone? Bag
2. Describe your boyfriend/girlfriend? Imaginary
3. Your hair? Down
4. Your mother? Awesome
5. Your father? Out-of-this-world
6. Your favourite item? Tudor
7. Your dream last night? None
8. Your favourite drink? Milo
9. Your dream car? Lamborghini
10. The room you are in? W35M
11. Your ex? Speck-of-dust
12. Your fear? Life
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Dictator
14. Who did you hang out with last night? Laptop
15. What you're not? perfect
19. The last thing you did? Listen
20. What are you wearing? Elmo
22. Your favourite book? TheCuriousIncidentOfTheDogInTheNight-Time
23. The last thing you ate? Fisherman'sfriend
24. Your life? Insane
25. Your mood? F
26. Your friends? Hm..
27. What are you thinking about right now? M
28. Your car? Non-existent
29. What are you doing at the moment? This
30. Your summer? Nothing-out-of-the-norm
31. Your relationship status? Single
32. What is on your TV? Nothing.
33. When is the last time you laughed? Never
34. Last time you cried? 3 days ago
35. School? RP

I tag anyone who's bored.

Joyeux Anniversaire, Papa!

2007-08-02T11:14:00.000+08:00

We had a mini celebration yesterday, just the usual sing-birthday-song-and-cut-cake routine. I kind of feel guilty for only getting him an e-card (with very little words at that). Dad left for Jakarta this morning. Boo to that.

I will always love you.

2007-08-01T02:34:00.000+08:00

School was mundane, no less.

But these guys made my day:

Lai Yan was surprisingly, camera shy yesterday.

Lai Yan, Joanne, Wei Zhong, Eugene, Colin, Kok Beng, Lance and I went to CWP for dinner after school. I almost died there and then, the banters were ceaseless I tell you! Then the six of us (without Kok Beng & Lance) watched the movie Alone. I liked the twist at the end of the movie, but it wasn't scary at all - apart from a few instances when the restless spirit appeared. After which, we slacked at the Macs located at Woodlands Civic Plaza till 2300. By the end of it all, my face was scarlet red (from my fever and the excessive laughing).

I'm up so late cuz there's no school today, so yay! I get to sleep till late in the afternoon.

Happy birthday Daddykins! I ♥ you! May God bless you with good health and happiness.

Sedation changes to panic and nausea

2007-07-30T17:59:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of being melancholic, angry, in tears and whinny and perturbed. What's worse is, I feel stupid. Like an utter moron. I need a guide book that tells me how to be happy. I need love (from any possible sources). Pronto.

For a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic

2007-07-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously dying from the lack of shopping. I wonder how I survived the whole month. I am gonna do some hardcore shopping the next two weeks and I don't care! I can't believe I spend my weekends slacking at the Macdonald's near my house. Fudge. This is so unbecoming of me. God, I'm morphing into an alien. I need to go to SingFest!

While you're away, I hope you'll be gone for good.
I need time away from you. Forever.
You selfish jerk.

Deth Kult

2007-07-27T11:59:00.000+08:00

Things didn't go as planned during the whole of today. My earlier part of the day was pretty screwed up. Sigh.

I was slightly happier when I got to meet up with Pat, Shi Han and Yan Rong after school, but the rest (Hwee, CC & Allie) couldn't make it. The initial plan was to watch Alone, but we switched to watching the Simpsons Movie instead; since Pat hates horror movies.
♥ you girls!

My favourite Springfield Family!

The movie wasn't as hilarious as I expected it to be, but I enjoyed it anyhow.

Screw grainy pictures. I need a Canon!

Continuous downwards spiral

2007-07-26T09:18:00.000+08:00

I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

$15.50 (Monday) + $14.90 (Thursday) = $30.40

I spent $30.40 just on cab fares this week!

Monday, cuz I overslept. Today, I overslept cuz I took reaaaaaaaaaaaaallly drowsy medicine the night before. I'm not gonna do that again. Fuck. I'm not gonna waste money taking cab to school ever again.

Class was superbly fun today, here's an extract:

I don't want a new class! ):

In case you were wondering why I kept signing in and out of MSN at approximately 4 - 4.30 PM this afternoon. Isn't Kok ~~Bang~~ Beng a hottie? Hahahahahahahahaha!

Class photo wor! ♥

Emancipation

2007-07-25T00:48:00.000+08:00

I think up till now, this friendship is all about you. Don't you think you're a tad selfish? I'm sick of all the giving, really. It should be my turn to receive. It sucks to be whinny and upset but I can't help it. I want to tell you. I tried. But it turned out to be a futile attempt because you hardly ask about my feelings, anything about me. Hell, you don't even read my blog. Am I just a dumping ground for you to pour out your woes, your secrets, your gossips, your unhappiness..? Then I take in more, some more, even more until I can take it no longer. I explode. I've got enough problems of my own. Everytime I try to talk, you shut me up -unintentionally or not- and yak yak yak. I'm angry, undoubtedly, but mostly disappointed. And now you're handing over your mess to me. I don't understand everything you're doing. I don't.

I'm mentally and physically drained. My eyes wanted to shut so much -when I plonked onto the MRT seat today- even when I struggled to keep them open. I hate waking up with aching neck and bones. I want to be the Victoria who doesn't care about self-image. I need to be crazy happy wacky. I've been in this state for way too long. I'm about to snap.

I don't see the point in taking tests cause no matter how low the scores are, the results get moderated and I managed to scrape a C even though I got 7/38. Superb aye? I think it's trash. I'm not learning anything, even when I thought I was.

And I've had enough of criticisms. I'm sick of people ribbing me 24/7. I'm sick of people treating me like garbage. I'm human too. Fuck. Fuck you.

My skin is itching. My head is throbbing. My bones and neck are aching. My calves hurt. My body hurts so much that I'm tempted to holler at you. I'm trying to pry my eyes open. I feel like utter crap. I never fail to do so.

Why? So many questions left unanswered.

Hermit. Yes?

2007-07-24T20:01:00.000+08:00

I think I've lost contact with the people I love.

I'm done with the pursuit of perfection.
I shall just leave it as it is.

Quaint little house by the sea. A patio covered with parquet. Kids calling the beach their "sand box". Beautiful sunset everyday. Puppies running about the house. This is what I call bliss. I'm just waiting for someone who shares the same vision as I do.

In another month's time, we'll no longer be classmates. I'm not quite ready to meet new people yet. Sigh. I don't like the idea of having new "friends" once every 4 months. I need permanent friends. Friends that will stick with me. I think I'm new-friend-a-phobic and that sucks.

I hate it when people who've grown close to me over a period of time just *poof* disappear. Such is life.

I'm rather chirpy today but I don't know why all these came into me mind.
(:

Happy wacky 20th!

2007-07-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

Happy sexy 20th Uzubabashileelee! ♥
Hahahahahahahahahha!

You're finally 20. Old, but still none the wiser ;p
I'm kidding!

And here's a really "flattering" photo of you, dear uzubabashileelee. *snigger* Since you've kindly put up so many of mine on your blog (:

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

To Lai Yan, Sam & Kel:
Our duel shall commence again tomorrow.
Bwahahahaahahhaa!

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

2007-07-22T17:28:00.001+08:00

... is finally out after much hype. I can't wait to get my hands on it too. But that'd have to wait till I have the $$ ): I know the ending of Book 7 already cuz the news reported it. Spoiler!

Friday
The last few moments of my glorious, glorious mop of hair.

Yesterday's BBQ (held to celebrate Hafiz, Hasif and Sathiya's 18) was alright. Got to see some people who I haven't seen for quite some time. I can't say I enjoyed myself but I did have some fun time with them monkeys.

The only sec 4s present were:

Yes, the three of us. How pathetic aye.

Atiq brought her boyfriend along and they were practically glued to each other through-out. Aw... How sweet (;

Fizzow with the pink bunneh ears :D

ZL and Yao Rong teased me during the whole BBQ, 'bout my hair, 'bout my weight and all. Idiotxzxzzx.

Met up with Sandy after we left.

Today

As expected, I got teased by the guys. It was ceaseless, I tell you. Even my supposed "good friends" laughed along with them. Thanks a lot, you guys.

My voice was trembling quite a lot today. Weird.

My new hairstyle sucks so much

2007-07-21T12:15:00.000+08:00

that I wanna go die.

Someone tell me how to remedy this? ):

Thursday the 19th

2007-07-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's communication class was the best ever. All we did was to slack, have fun and to fool around video-ing.

It was pouring this morning.
I just grabbed a teeshirt and slipped into my pumps, then realised that was a mistake.
The dollar coin meant for my bus ride rolled into the drain.
I missed a bus while waiting for my maid to bring me her ez-link card.
I looked like a wreck.
Cyn cried, so did R. Chin (our facilitator).

Nothing bad happened on my Friday the 13th though.

Simpsonize me!

2007-07-18T10:44:00.002+08:00

Go read the news report on this. It's hilarious; the way the pagans react.

I love the Simpsons! Can't wait for the movie to be out!
And this is the way I'll look if I live in Springfield.
Go simpsonize yourself!

:D

Running in circles, you don't even care

2007-07-17T14:36:00.000+08:00

It's almost time for 3rd meeting. Went to Causeway Point with almost half my class for breakfast at Mac's. They're a fun bunch.

I wore my ditsy dot tieback to school today, paired it with a pair of leggings and my havaianas and my "granny's" bag. Loved the outfit, but everything would be perfecto if I was slim. Le sigh.

I don't like my ____. I don't like my _____. I don't like ____.
You only know how to ruin my mood.

I wish _______ would care a little more. I need your embrace.
Sometimes I wonder if my presence is of any importance to you, or did you just merely needed someone there. Anyone.

(edited at 11:59 PM)

All the insane stuff we did today. Credits to photographer Lee Shi, who never fails to capture me being "unglam".

Why won't you come to your fuckin' senses?

2007-07-17T00:09:00.001+08:00

Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.Fuck you. Fuck you.

FUCK YOU!

You crossed the line

you're running in circles

now you lost your self-control

you murdered me, so you can fall asleep

you might as well shut down

I wonder where you are

I wonder if you found your other self

or are you still somebody else

there's so much bottled up inside

and its been shaken up, its going to explode

you can't stop it, you just can't stop it

you say you're done

you swear you've gave it up

running in circles you don't even care

that you're going nowhere

you hate yourself

I still wonder where you are

I wonder if the thorn's still in your side

will you pull it out in time?

and now it starts to overflow

and spill its guts and ruin someone's soul

you can't stop it, you just can't stop it

you say you're done

you swear you've gave it up

running in circles you don't even care

that you're going nowhere

you hate yourself

you crossed the line

you're running in circles

now you lost your self-control

you murdered me, so you can fall asleep

you might as well shut down

let's go!

you are my disaster!

I can't stop chasing after!

you crossed the line

you're running in circles

now you lost your self-control

you say you're done

you swear you've gave it up

running in circles you don't even care

that you're going nowhere

you hate yourself

you're my disaster

I can't stop chasing you

I ♥ Kazakhastan

2007-07-15T21:18:00.000+08:00

I've waited 7 excruciating months for my fugly highlights to fade, and finally.

Caught Harry Potter & The Order of The Phoenix with Yan Rong and Shi Han, Allie backed out last minute ): I think twas' nice, but everyone rates it badly. We bumped into Hong Ming & friend after the movie.

I've finally got my butt down to creating a LJ. Will be posting up my stuff up for sell soon!

Click here to view!

School tomorrow. Bummer.

Glass in the trees

2007-07-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

Listen to the last song on my playlist.
It hits home; on what I'm feeling, that is.

Anberlin is an awesome band.

Sometimes I wonder why I bother about others' feelings when they don't give two flying fucks about mine. I am not indulging in self-pity.

Everything I do and say, I get criticised for it.
I've gotta learn to be self-reliant. No more agreeing to everything. No more intimidations. All I ask for is a bit of strength, wisdom and liberation. I don't go out alone, I can never go to school alone, I can never shop alone, I can never dine alone. To me, being lonely and alone are the same thing. People however, say they are two separate matters.

Cecilia, I'm beginning to agree with you. Certain incidents happen to make you see.
I guess they're more of proximity acquaintances then friends. Not friends that will stick with you no matter what.

I miss you girls terribly - Hui Yu, Cecilia, Shi Han, Patricia, Yan Rong and Allie.
I miss 4-1.
I miss Mrs. J Ng.
I miss Mr. Dimus Choong.
I miss "Uncle Kelly".

Growing up is not at all a fun process.
Oh, how I hate being nolstagic and weepy and gloomy!

On another note, JJ has had his fur groomed today. He's looking mighty handsome.

Out of the 5 days of school, I only attended 3.

As usual, Rebecca Chin was a total fuckhead.
"Then minues left!" Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! * infinity

Take off your mask.

2007-07-11T10:55:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging religiously, I know. I needed a hiatus.

First breakout just ended, and we're doing the FMT only now. I'm a major slacker these days ):
Kok Beng is an idiot, Gibson is a walrus. They're both smoke addicts and are mentally disabled. It's my misfortune to be grouped with them. Le sigh! Fortunately for me, I have Hui Ling and Wei Ping.

Lol.

You suck.

Josh Duhamel is H-A-W-T.

2007-07-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

Transformers is teh best flick I've ever watched. Love the storyline, love the lead acts. Everything!

:D

Happy birthday to Cyndy!

Pardon me if I suddenly break down and cry, have emotional fluctuations or do anything weird/stupid/insane. All I need are people who are understanding now, cuz it's a really trying period for me.

Everything's going great.. JUST GREAT.

2007-07-08T10:14:00.000+08:00

My laptop went zonkers.

All the pictures, music, rp folders GONE. Just like that.
The music, I can retrieve it from my MP3 but the pictures ): Sigh.

My life is effed up more than ever before.
@#$%^&*!

When emotions overrun,

2007-07-06T11:11:00.000+08:00

I cry.

Sorry for the friggin' emotional outburst today. I don't know what came over me. I hope I didn't frighten you guys. Thanks aplenty to people who bother cheering me up; I appreciate that. Tears welled up in my eyes during prayer meeting, but I managed to hold them back. I really hate crying in front of people.

So many obstacles, and I'm not even 17.
Why is being human so hard?
Sometimes I really wish I didn't have emotions.

To me, crying is a form of release but also a sign of weakness.

P.S/ I think people should know that when a person is upset, he/she needs care and concern from people around her, not time-out(s) or time to "cool down". At the very least, that's for me.

It'd be the last.

2007-07-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was insane. I rushed to Jurong Point right after school. Only to get scolded by Mom, wait an hour for Sandy, have the movie cancelled, and all we did was to window shop and have dinner at KFC.

@#$%^&*!!

The only good thing was, I bumped into many lovely people! Hafiz, Yao Rong, Hui Wen... can't remember some.

Lai Yan, Cyn, Lee Shi, Wei Zhong & I went off after the first breakout today. Twas' really impromptu, but we went ahead with it anyway. The funny thing is, we stayed in the school's cafe. All the way till 4PM.

Afterwhich I met Sandy at Dover. We bumped into Hanny Wunny Bunny! I hugged her and she did the this-girl-is-crazy handsign to her friends. Walao! ): I miss my MAOs!

Then we headed to Sandy's class studio, and attended SP's CF Bible Study. I felt pretty much at home cuz I know most members during the April camp. GQ & Jabez left with the rest while Zhong Ying, Sandy & I headed to Jurong Point to get Sandy's dress and dinner.

Sandy just left my house not long ago. My brother totally cracked us up with his absurdities and we couldn't stop laughing.
Pronunciation problems, retarded photos and people-watching. Gee!

Gramps & Nana are back from China! :D
They seemed to have enjoyed their trip very much.

On a serious note, I've noticed a change in myself. Something that I wish would go away. I don't like all the angst within me. It's not doing me any good. None at all.

P.S/ I'm selling my Little Miss Contrary tee by Junk Food. It's authentic (mind you, I bought it from Queen's Couture) and is tagged a size M. I've worn it for less than 10 times and it is in mint condition. Price is negotiable. Contact me for more details!
SOLD!

Email address: fifi.pipi.andsushi@hotmail.com

Cheap monday blues

2007-07-02T11:32:00.000+08:00

Done with my part of the worksheet, and I'm supposed to be researching on - wait, what's that? ah yes... the criteria for selecting air rifle players.

My blog's turning into a picture blog. I don't really like.

My weekend was a blast. I really, really enjoyed myself at the anniversary dinner, I guess everyone else did too.

I love this photo of Wayne & Leon. It's heart-breakingly adorable! Leon was crying because his sister bullied him, then he went to big brother Wayne for solace.

1-2-3.. Everyone go,"Aw..."

Your mind is seriously warped.

Think I can like you,

2007-07-01T17:39:00.000+08:00

I already do.

Thursday

Friday

Saturday

Click here for the JCC 40th anniversary dinner album! :D

Hold Conversation

2007-06-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

I'm at S11 with Sandy, Jabez, GQ & Kai En now.
GQ just ate claypot frog (Ew?). Gross.

Will update on my week soon!
And hooray! It's Jurong Christian Church's 40th anniversary (dinner) tomorrow! I can't wait :D

Malt candy & f**k.

2007-06-28T11:18:00.000+08:00

Decided that ugly things/people should not be allowed to taint my blog, so I deleted the entry.

I'm hooked onto "Don't push love away" by Juliana Theory, even though the song's pretty old. Actually all the songs on my playlist rockxzxzx, so you must listen to them!

I haven't gotten back my momentum for school, which is pretty saddening. Have been rather short-tempered these few days, and I have a hunch that my group won't be getting good grades for today's module. @#$%^&*!!

Life.Is.Boring

Definitions, definitions.

2007-06-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

I've put a playlist uploaded by yours sincerely, enjoy the music!

Anyway, school today was ok 'cept that my voice was pretty much the same and I had a hard time trying to speak during presentation. I hate my voice. Very raspy, very masculine. Ugh.

Met up with Yan Rong at Woodlands, and we slacked around at TCC @ Citylink Mall. Afterwhich, we headed to Marina Square and we saw Ericia Lee. She's stick-thin except for her massive chest. We wanted to get the besties necklace at Diva, but didn't eventually. I need a job to support my expenses!

Cityhall is boring. Town is boring. Singapore is boring.
Arrr... I'm itching for some pool fun. Anyone interested? :D

Lee Shi, please cheer up!
And tis' a belated birthday dedication to Marly! Happy 20th darling!

Here's a thought, if you're willing to listen.

2007-06-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

It's a chore holding onto a vision.
Whispers in the rain, lying awake.

If you've ever noticed... she's never been there.
But I, have always been listening to you. Always.
I try to make it when you needed someone to listen to you in the middle of the night.

What did my embrace mean to you? I need to know.
Of moral support? Or something else?
Although I know she's all you want right now.

I'm more than satisfied, being your confidante.
I don't expect anything, anymore.

Lo and behold,

2007-06-25T09:09:00.001+08:00

I ended up getting a B for Basic Sciences and surprise, surprise, and an A for Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving.

Wei Ling is going through answers for UT1 now, and my whole body is aching even though I slept at 11 last night.

Milligram Smile

2007-06-23T15:16:00.000+08:00

School was fine, but getting drier by the day. With the exception of yesterday. Ram said he wants to give me an A. But of course, that depends on my performance.

Friday

Had dinner at school with Laiyan, Siew Hui, Lee Shi, Eugene, Wei Zhong and Kok Beng. Then Laiyan, Wei Zhong and I went to Vivo City. Twas' Wei Zhong who suggested going there, but they ended up window shopping with me. Haha! We had ice cream at Haagen Dazs, went out for a lil' breeze, and over to Starbucks to submit our RJs. Dad came to fetch me, and they left.

We then went to fetch Mommy at Lakeside, then headed to SuperCue for some pool. I played really badly yesterday ):

Off to church!

Anyway, you've got to check out Planet Hiltron. Hilarious, I must say.

Treasures galore.

2007-06-21T09:50:00.000+08:00

Lack of beauty sleep. Eyes that hurt. Yawning once every two minutes.

I.AM.EFFING.TIRED.

Communication UT was tough, I can predict an F ):
W35M has a change of facilitator for Enterprise module, and she's really -.-
What's her name again? ...Rebecca Chin. Ah, school suxorr.

Anyway, kudos to Naf for finding me a treasure. The lovely, lovely bookstore at Far East Plaza which buys your old novels and rents/sells them at a low price. I am gonna frequent that place very often! :D

Went to Far East with Naf, Angelyn & Isky after school yesterday, and we bumped into Per Hong Ming, Levin, Jerm and Noel! Those guys were idiots, especially Noel, who ran off at high speed when he spotted us. What the hell? Talked a bit with the rest. Jerm has turned into a fashionista! Love his skinny polo. I miss 4-1 soooooo much! ): Hope the chalet will be a success!

Anyway, the Chinchilla keeps eyeing me.
But she's nice, I s'pose. Lol.